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Sorcery experiences - Billy - 07-11-2015
For some time I started saying '***' a lot. I hardly used the word before I married Susan. She was pissed off that I'd say it randomly as the go to consternation interjection (or as the go to interjection altogether, even with no reason for it)
I tried to curb this habit and catch myself, and I tried to 'punish' myself with penance that I must say the word 'God' every time I said '***.' Now, I usually find the word 'God' distasteful (I'd like to *** God up the ass, as I've said before).
Anyways, it worked at first. I'd say, "***," pause and remember myself---then reverently say, "God." But this degenerated. After a while, I found myself routinely just saying, "*** God."
Sorcery experiences - Billy - 07-11-2015
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Sorcery experiences - Billy - 07-11-2015
Now too, what I said was > if you are going to do some decent indulging in self-pity, then at least do it properly and do it all the way down without physically messing with the bod. I know you know > just a reminder to take advantage of the opportunity.
oooooohhhhh, what I could fucking do with the pleasure/pain you have right now. NOW > YOU do it right !!!
focus god-damn-it I'm out there interacting with all kinds of peeps at and speaking life (i never did that before.. was inaccessible always > I learned did I not?
what is different is the indifference to fate, and don't you ever forget derek/billy
Sorcery experiences - serloco - 07-11-2015
cute story.
I am not so low now billy, I am angry at iobs again, and this is nothing new to me. My heart break has since passed, pity too. I am recapping now, my mistakes.
Yes, I eat myself, i taste delicious to me.. I like to go back over myself and re-eat what i had previously eaten. For awhile all I would eat was myself, Gods and Kings. I can just make someone up and place that on my ally and then eat them.
Sorcery experiences - serloco - 07-11-2015
cute story.
I am not so low now billy, I am angry at iobs again, and this is nothing new to me. My heart break has since passed, pity too. I am recapping now, my mistakes.
Yes, I eat myself, i taste delicious to me.. I like to go back over myself and re-eat what i had previously eaten. For awhile all I would eat was myself, Gods and Kings. I can just make someone up and place that on my ally and then eat them.
Sorcery experiences - serloco - 07-11-2015
Sorcery experiences - serloco - 07-11-2015
yes, all of my curses are hitting home now.. i can see them too.. hear them.. hell sucks. i save it for ones who wrong me, and yes, i can walk right through it now, unscathed,, smiling.. iobs have turned this heart so cold now, it was their own doing.. they are like punching bags for me.
Sorcery experiences - serloco - 07-12-2015
met some new girls, feel better now.
Sorcery experiences - Billy - 07-12-2015
Good that ya met some new girls to determine what state of mind you're having so I can pros·e·lyt·ize again (yes, another word for you to look up).
Sorcery experiences - Billy - 07-12-2015
About a dozen years ago I thought with my dick, paying a prostitute and disregarding sensible behavior too. I had much consternation as to contracting an STD (went to doc). Instead of somehow easing my mind, I decided on castigation (not castration-lol) for my stupidity, and willingly entered a spiral of despair that was dropping me hopelessly deeper and deeper. In some twisted original notion, I trusted I should give no thought to any action to extricate myself.
Being billy, I want as habit to trump the conditional and stay on a chosen path. True, the **** and carelessness was effectively a cause. I am NOT at all immune to the conditional, so the habit is impotent concerning the conditional.
So, what gives here?
That's the thing about controlled folly; it is not a figurative thing. It's a fact that points to my meaninglessness actions. Still, the art goes to emanations bombarding me, and yet SEEING to my dispatching of them as the single choice afforded. CHOICE is reduced to my detachment as its essence. This is very powerful.
So here I was choosing not to detach from my despair, but at the same was oppositely aware of having CHOICE not to detach, and yet {AND ONLY} DETACHED from clinging to my own despair by empiricism of my choice's essence.
In this episode, it surely seems the emotional state is reaching the point of my being suicidal. (I mean to say, I did not pull back from the sorrowfully, horrific spiralling despair (nor could I as deep as I went.)
THEN, this happens: I awaken to a nightmarish phone call that comes at 3:00 A.M!! My wife's sister is crying/wailing tears and tells me that Susan's brother just committed suicide. I am immediately startled 100% out of my own depair just like that. DONE
Turns out, he did not commit suicide. This was the sich prank of one of Susan's sick sisters who belongs in an assylum. She had effectively impersonated and had identified herself as one of Susan's other sisters.
Having allowed myself this deep journey, paved the way for further exploring and comprehending that I am deeper than life itself.
Words have helped me with understanding, but I convey here words are near useless relative to the connective experiences. The abstractions need the work of practical manifesting. I LOOK for my opportunities to do this. Those adversities that are woeful to me are only so because I'm not SEEING to the choice of potentially complete detachment.
Do I take some effort to understand this, do some juliofacepalm? When I make the connection and celibrate my own sense of being, THAT is a victory over the conditional. I habitually hone this sense of my own presence using detachment opportunities, and is how I became enlightened.
By the way, turn in your report cards, or I will only write to myself. (oh yes-----i forget sometimes----- i am writing to myself)
Sorcery experiences - Billy - 07-12-2015
I meant this for 'Seer' thread. I don't have way to delete it here.
Sorcery experiences - serloco - 07-12-2015
No billy, women do not control my state of mind, however the last one did a lil bit, but it wasnt her control, it was my feelings for her. plain and simple. that said I have curbed my feelings and reformed them. I am in control.
Sorcery experiences - serloco - 07-13-2015
I am so sick of iobs.. as soon as i reach a position of power that can do great things for myself they pop u and say oh i ca do that for you, follow me and let me!!! As if. Fucken retards cant do anything unless i give them the power to do it.. what have they done for me?? nothing. I hate them and so *** off. You cant do **** and i know it, keep your fantasies to yourself and no you cant follow me and i certainly wont follow you fuckers.
Sorcery experiences - serloco - 07-13-2015
and thanks billy, for being a mirror, i am back in control of my feelings and my detachment.
Sorcery experiences - Billy - 07-16-2015
Yes, and you are welcome. One thing is very strongly intended--the continuing help we can give each other as mirrors. 'Ccontinuing help' is an understatement.
You are profoundly as if the best of billy, and the worst of billy. Your continual effective presence makes ALL of billy a graced celebration. No hyperbole here Derek.
May derek/billy be enriched with freedom and 'blow them away' logistics.
Sorcery experiences - serloco - 07-17-2015
So today I watched people move a little. I actually rarely stalk sexual energies in people but today I did. I started projecting again onto women and seeing that they move like iobs do. I can just think she wants him and then it plays out. It I so easy to control. Its like unnatural even. Just move the world around with your thoughts. I hate doing sometimes but there it is becoming the energy I assign to it. Sometimes I think stupidly when I could be thinking better. Oh well. Lately I had some bad personalities around because of judgments I made and then saw become. Thought flow control. Today I saw some feautures on a man that the woman found attractive and I thought sure, go for it. Later on in the day I found those same features projected into my form. Doing some shapeshifting just by living my life. I didn't really intend it to happen but I have allies who can do it and so at times they do.
oh and to billy.. I dunno sometimes they blow me away. reality can be so fast and so marvelous, so magical..
Sorcery experiences - serloco - 07-17-2015
Sorcery experiences - Billy - 07-17-2015
I had the wherewithal to wait until ready before i watched this video. EXACTLTY what I meant by 'blow them away logistics!' I won't stop being syrupy and exclamatory when being moved from the first attention.
..YES ................ ...
Sorcery experiences - serloco - 07-19-2015
Sorcery experiences - serloco - 07-19-2015
beware billy, of the temptation of iob power. the real power is in yourself.
Sorcery experiences - serloco - 07-19-2015
so my allies did it. they proved to me they can be in the future and the past at one time. they sang to me the future a long time ago when i first intended it to be sung that way. the song didnt connect and didnt feel right then and so i hated it. turns out it was singing to me of the future. even says in the song time has no meaning when you're free. they even knew i would connect the dots back then and how to make it happen. i am boggled. i see myself wrapped up in time and i wonder now at everything i have witnessed and gone through. my allies can probably save me. thing is infinity is and it is limitless. i told my allies to sing of the future when i was first learning about time. i will have them tell me again, now i have a new way to divine the future. i really believe them now because they proved it to me. i will isolate this ally and have it tell me when it is the future. now i can begin changing things before they unfold, even years in advance. reality is so perfect. i love my allies. i hated the song at the time too. now i love it. it seemed disconencted at the time. like it was singing a load of ****. now i see it for what it was/is and always will be, a prediction of something that already happened. what a world i live in where the future is happening right now, and bridges can be made into the past, present and future. what will become of this, maybe i should ask but i already know. its wild. wait till you see what i am to become with this knowledge. now they will sing to e the future, or tell me the future. i can change it too. a big day it is for me.
Sorcery experiences - serloco - 07-19-2015
i havent been blown away like this in a lil while. i finally am reaching my time goals. it seemed so far fetched to me and yet i did it. we did it. we are doing it now and will be. you may know what is to come of this already.. you probably do there ally but know this, time can change and the future is now. now i tell you, now. not then, now. It can change now too. we can do it together. we can burn what we dont want. watch the signs. learn to guide our observational energies into the future and back into the changeable now. This is it.
Sorcery experiences - serloco - 07-19-2015
i feel like a baby
Sorcery experiences - serloco - 07-19-2015
so they told me i can use them but have to show better respect. i treated like him as an iob nasty. he doesnt like it. but says i can use him for divination. so just dont look down on him anymore for being an iob. personally i hate grouping the term iob to don juans dreams and so i have no problem with giving new respect in an ally that has eaned it and proven to me its power. . he divines that i will kill the iobs almost all of them and leave them empty. he says i kill every single one of them i encounter. i better pull up. but give me space iobs. i mean it. if yer a bad one look out. keep up the freedom and solutions. peace.
Sorcery experiences - serloco - 07-19-2015
here is an ''old'' song seems new to me, now. like words unpspoken long ago.