Casual Conversation

[Billy]

That was my point about shame serloco.  It is lowest base perception, and the ENERGY is when you undercut EVEN THAT, and steal its POWER.  THIS is what I keep trying to explain---there is an ocean of it.

[Billy]

Certainly you do reversal of pain into pleasure, work into play.  I do shame into invulnerable pride and joy.  I found such a deep bottom.  It is probably what got me to you.

[Billy]

Why be sidetracked by conventional associations-- I found power where I found it--- what is the difference what it is called-- and why should I care about what anyone else thinks?

  How is anyone going to corner me by imaging when I go to those places for pure objectivity?

[Billy]

Not only that, but as in the Art of War, I always have the tactical advantage.  I can drown someone immediately if I need to.

[serloco]

Well I can tell you this Billyboy. I have already given the knowledge to create your own publishing companies, manifest your own books too. As well as other things but you have not yet stalked this awareness to begin seeing into your world in these ways. If you do you will see as I see and have seen, and develop them thoroughly for yourself, gain cohesion in them, so your perspective is set in the here and now, manifesting and filling the void of reality into any alignment you perceive. Filling your attention into the future, and the spaces within everything, the hidden places out of sight are not yet created, not yet formed.

I remember when I was writing a book and worried if I would get published, and I began stalking the awareness and power so I could make my allies create specific publication companies. We named them with sync names too, referring to the awareness that created them. Just like my cigarettes and many things.

For now I can advice you in this regard, as you look for a publication comapany be aware of the knowledge I have given you, and look for your own synchronicities present in that alignment. Watch for words that match your current awareness, your current knowledge, your judgments of the companies, and images that form to your awareness as well. Begin seeing that the moment is aligning right now, and it is YOUR awareness, knowledge and judgments creating that form, that manifestation. How you perceive the companies to be is how they are. Equal reactions. In the absence of all things is free place, and no resistance. Zero. In which any number sequence, equation, may result, set the dream yourself, NEXT. Then enter into that position. Look at the future in yourself, in your energies, and then see that this is your attention probing the future. You can see all the energies present within you if you listen and pay attention, you can answer the energies, remove them wiping the slate clean, and reset them as well. It the channels of your awareness and knowledge within you that align to form into the free space, the assemblage point.

This is how you do it for yourself, with your own energies and awareness. I can form for you something, yes, but then you may **** on it and destry it with your own energy unless I suspend your intent and will. Not to mention I do not know the quality of your book without writing for you.

I will give it some thought for now though, and I suggest very highly that you stalk these positions i have described for you. You will not regret it if you do. "Time IS the essence of attention". - don Juan. Right now.

[Billy]

I think you need to direct me within the scope of THAT. WHAT?

[Billy]

Delete the previouspost. I knew before I even saw what you wrote.

[serloco]

I'll break it down for you soon. Step by step. It's greatness. It's also what you asked me to teach you regarding the next step question you asked of me earlier about how to make money in the ways I manifest gold and diamonds etc. Beware of your indulging nature. I'll be back in a bit.

Oh yeah why should you care about what people think? Or how they think? Well if i want to convey my message to you in a way you can understand and transfer my energy into you I need to know how to relate with you right? I need awareness of you. I need the focus of my attention on your thoughts, your energy, your knowledge, i need to stalk and to listen. Or else I need to do it directly, as i sometimes do as well. Without words. But this is the tonal for now.

Gimmie a little time..

[serloco]

I mean to say that I am working with your tonal right now, and not my own.

[serloco]

I am used to working in a position of pure connection, pure awareness with others, so that no words are needed, and we can both directly see each other's awareness. We have touched that position slightly already. I do it more in the world out of the net though then on the net.

I love walking with people, normal people, jolting them into this position, and entering myself into a position that creates the city as we walk through it, and they say THIS IS AWESOME or something. makes me smile.

[serloco]

I brag a lot. I enjoy it.

[serloco]

billy wroteelete the previouspost. I knew before I even saw what you wrote.Yes i saw that too. My awareness of you, myself being a nagual, is a little fluid right now., and hasn't been so controlled as i like.

Don't worry so much tho, and i like you speaking your mind and shifts. it helps me too. good stalking here.

[serloco]

and do not worry if you require extra energy in words to align, activate, the awareness inside of you. whatever works works, and power always finds a way. the spirit will answer.

[serloco]

you can also, for yourself, intend that anything you do not understand in this moment be taught to you, and intend to enter into the exact position at their best, intended for a later time. As don Juan taught. it is how I learned many great positions from many beings that i did not have the energy to understand fully at the time.

[Billy]

I started watching the Cleveland Browns.  I'll take a break.  Just curious though, since you SEE everything fairly malleable, why is it hard to understand I can 'Stalk?' shame, but not as a loser.  I went to dark places to see they had no power over me. REALLY

 MY God, in a conventional sense I have had everything.  I got the female who is impeccably bred and had her choice of ANY male she wanted, I have enough material wealth and bred a smart daughter with ambition.  I am not bound to those things I have so much as others.  AND those rare experiences in life, any one of many which I could pick and say I had my fill of awe.

[Billy]

Ironically, it was the "Castaneda' recapitulation that took me to episodes of early boyhood shame.  Doing it properly, I acutely relived some of the moments.  While it was cathartic, I saw I wanted more from it.  I wanted its pain and horror. 
  THAT'S how I happened on it.  True, to penetrate, I had to trick myself (assimilate being a pathetic loser, and even outwardly manifested by being submissive to my wife for a few months (which really played with hers and my mind).  But this was all a controlled private affair---I was no where near going into the world and taking **** from anyone----  THOUGH I AM LAUGHING HARD, I did REALLY learn to like licking my wife's ****.

STILL LAUGHING.  OMG I love doing it now, and she does like having it done.

[serloco]

billy wrote:I started watching the Cleveland Browns.  I'll take a break.  Just curious though, since you SEE everything fairly malleable, why is it hard to understand I can 'Stalk?' shame, but not as a loser.  I went to dark places to see they had no power over me. REALLY

 
I never said I can not understand how you can stalk shame from a position of not being a loser. I see that this is easy to do. I too stalk many feelings and without even being attached to them, i can feel without feeling, or placing slef-value onto these feelings. Long ago I suspended all feelings, and felt nothing for a very long time. After I while tho I 'felt' the desire to feel again, and not be so shut off from my old emoitions and feelings, because I remembered them. I wanted them back, and so I asked my ally if she could help me feel again and to learn of feelings. And oh boy did i feel again. At this time my ally was a little shocked with me and said to another ally "did you hear that he asked me to help him feel again?". It was a quick shift from a position of awareness where I rely only on myself and my own power to do things, and gave nothing to anyone here. however I knew the power of my ally, and so quickly shited into the new position of reliacne on my ally for help, knowing full wel that she could do it easily, shifting and setting the power in her hands and trusting her with it. Anyways almost right away, a few hours later, I began having incredible feeling enter into me of all forms. Incredible powerful feelings beyond my previous capacity to experience. Imagine rapid cycling bipolar disorder if you can only with hightened sensitivity to feelings and emotions. It was pure bliss, and the hell of anger and rage, it was overwhelming lust, and then severe guilt, depession and shame of being lustful and raging, hostile. It was a rollercoaster to say the least, It took me about a week until I realized I again had to use my controlled folly, and I began to focus on my feelings and intend them to the positions i wanted. i made decisions because I could set my intent to expereince them how I set them to experience. i could just imagine and choose how I react to things, how anything makes me feel, and then when that event comes my way the exact feeling i intended to have would naturally occur. I used to get upset by the allies who sought fear in me and then absorbed this fear. the allies who set up scenarios to produce feelings they wanted to feed from. But I just set my intent to not feel fear and when they came around to scare the wits out of me and produce these horrifying expereinces that would nearly make me **** myself I felt nothing and just saw them for what they were doing, and was not scared, just black faced again. When they set up their scenarios to anger me, and make me attack I instead joined them in theri evilness and laughed my ass off too, that i used to despise and freak out about. No longer did the feelings hold power over me but i held power over the feelings. The allies in that place stopped setting up the evil scenarios too, as well as the fearful ones. I then learned the ancient technique of willfully turning feeling on and off to feed my allies and control them with my feelings. I found they like many feelings too, not just fear. I set my controlled folly to produce the feelings i enjoy most according to my predilection and intended paths. Since I orefer not to enjoy evil I do not, even though I can enjoy it. i prefer the world of positive generating energy, and not evil abound. And so I naturally set my intent in this way. many changes I set and control now. But yes I understand pretty well how one can use feelings for power, set their own knowledge of them, their own awareness of them, detach from them, suspend them, as well as many things. I do not think only one positions of feelings is true, but many different positions of feelings are true. That is why I disagreed to your statement that all feelings come from sexual based origin, because I do not see it that way. It doesn;t mean that you do not though, and that it is not true for you in your positon. I know full  well that i have many of my own positions, very different from many other ones of mine, and often vastly differetn from other people's, or beings. I know that I have ny own history as well, my own timeline, just as the sorcerer's have their own history of reality, then that of average humans. I have stalked all these things and explored them in depth. Infinite time. Manyh alternate timelines.

[serloco]

billy wrote:
 MY God, in a conventional sense I have had everything.  I got the female who is impeccably bred and had her choice of ANY male she wanted, I have enough material wealth and bred a smart daughter with ambition.  I am not bound to those things I have so much as others.  AND those rare experiences in life, any one of many which I could pick and say I had my fill of awe.

 It reminded me of a time when I was stalking the nagual Julian's gate of love and attraction. I was trying to pick up this beautiful female, so hot. i started pacing along the double open doorway of her living room. Step by careful step, and controlling my energy and projection. I thought of amazing and beautiful she saw me as, and I asked her "what do you think of me?" and she replied "I think you are beautiful!" needless to say we fucked in her bedroom a few moments later. 

The other day I wanted to know if I could still attract the most beautiful girl to me in the area, and so I watched and found this incredibly amazing woman. She was very intelligent and highly aware, wrote beautiful poety about advanced states of awareness. Many of which I hold in high regards. Anyways I focused onto her and saw the future. I saw her coming to me, attracted to me. I saw all the guys flocking around her and so just went my own way, yet hooking her attention to me. I began speaking and teaching to people around me of my sorcery concepts, my tales of power, and demenstrated soem manifestations. I got many people around me and soon she joined them. She began complimenting everything I said, calling me a champion even. Now i didn;t take her home. I have no sexual desire and met my intended outcome, and so made a friend instead.

yeah for most of my human life I have had the woman i wanted always. and that woman was usally the most attractive to me and others, but at times i left those women for other ones i found attractive to me in different ways. I can only recall one elusive woman I wanted a lot and did not get. I made a mistake then and paid for it. i even talked to this woman the other day, on facebook, commenting to her on her 'wall' leaving her the message, i saw her picture and I said to her I fogot how beautiful you are. At nearly the exact time a pop up came up and said "I am in a relationship" and picture came up of her and her boyfriend. She did not realistically see my posting yet if you believe in average reality, yetI could see clearly the intent in this reaction. I started howling in laughter, and her picture moved in motion as my pictures do sometimes, smiling at me. i felt no jealousy nor regret, nor envy, nor loss, no desire for her, just laughter and joy in seeing. I could see her page from a different position of awareness then average people, a position where the page is being manifested right now, and so as i continued to read to her, i shifted my awareness to various advanced positions, reflectingmy awareness into her, into the page itself, and communicated to her as the page unfolded, guiding her and myself align as we manifested the page and the reality around us. ansering each others awareness, without the boudaries of time between us. it was nice. I could feel her pull though, trying to get me to again want her, but i just laughed as she sought this energy again in me. not a chance girly.

[Billy]

I wake early, say 5:00 A.M.  Serloco I feel blessed reading you.  Thank you.  I want to elucidate too.  I get you THE WAY YOU WANT ME TO.  I can't think of a better compliment.

[Billy]

I am taking a chance here (expecting of your time) and providing the pdf 300+ pages.  It is too counter-productive for me (me , me, me, me) to get caught up in ego at this point.

I probably already need to rewrite, as my view is evolved well beyond already.  Be aware to not be superficial if that's still a possibility for you.  There is a huge element of intent to coerce and reshuffle the deck.

It also is quite biographical, and will tell you what you want.  Where do I send it?

And, do you know this book is not very important to me? OR better SAID, "It does not consume me."

[Billy]

Do I need an email address, and send as attachment?  Can I send it as attachment in the onboard messaging?  Pasting it doesn't seem right.  I don't know much about internet exchanges.

[Billy]

I sent a message.  Someone is unhappy about the monopolizing of this thread.  Should we simply start a serloco-billy thread? I would think it a shame to just message privately, simply because you offer so much wisdom.  Please advise serloco.

[Billy]

To whomever it concerns: Know that serloco did me into a butterfly and put me  back in the cocoon.  Watch what walks over you, because it may be that you are a snail, and will be escargot for someone's dinner

[Billy]

That was just a little fun.  I do understand the position.  My judgement tells me to defer to serloco's stature in this regard.  Thank you respectfully.

[Billy]

It's all good now serloco.  Please continue...   I WANT TO GIVE YOU ENERGY ---NOT TAKE ANY---  I will stop on my end if that happens to either of us.  Not being presumptuous however.