03-31-2014, 12:00 AM
We hope Dreamways he is beyond all that pettiness. So much of our energy is trying to get out of being what we were born as and we end up rejecting our origins. Since we die with our totality why not live with our totality. I have brought my self as a child into my adult body and integrated it.
Also who I was as a teenager and young person also warts and all. I have so many people in me that I can't count them all. Some are young, dumb and clunky which makes me laugh when they surface and shock people with who I am now and others are more serious. I also like to morph into animals when they are around as that makes me laugh.
I watched my father die. He had cancer and as he was winding down I vowed to honor his fate by accepting this might be my fate in time and I would accept it gladly to honor the man who gave me food/shelter/love. I held his hand at the last as he was moaning how horrible his body felt. As I was holding his hand I switched into my dreaming body and moved our assemblage points to where he would know serenity/peace and comfort. He immediately relaxed and his face went smooth and calm. When he died his assemblage point was still hooked to mine and he took me to the other side with him. I didn't expect that to happen..... What I saw was grey and bleak landscape where we go after everything has been taken from us. I really had to stalk myself at that point because I have loved ones who couldn't handle what I witnessed and if I saw them before I could move my assemblage back they would be drawn in without knowing what it is. What I and my dad saw was how temporary we are and how soon the same experience will happen to us all. I had to go back to the illusion that life is permanent and we have the luxury to behave as though we are immortal.
I had a lucid dreams with him later. The first was me sitting in the passenger's seat with my head down like I used to do while Dad drove us to the jobsite. I looked up at my Dad sitting behind the steering wheel looking ahead and said to him, "Dad, you died, what do you think about that?".
He turned his head to me and took his hands from the steering wheel, looked me in the eyes, and said to me, "Well Dan, these things happen." I immediately thought to grab the steering wheel as I woke up thinking it didn't seem to bother him that we might crash if he didn't focus on driving.
I had another lucid dream with him where I made a dream bubble for him to come and visit me with his solid dreaming body. He came inside and his body felt none of the pain. We talked for awhile and then I said, "Dad, I don't know how much longer I can keep this dream bubble open for you, are you going to be alright?" He said that he would and as the bubble collapsed I saw his dreaming body remember the pain and he sort of folded as he tried to stay solid there as long as he could and then he relaxed and disappeared back into the Nagual and I woke up.
Whatever I can do to jolt you NagualHuman I am happy to do and I wouldn't turn it down if you did the same for me.
Also who I was as a teenager and young person also warts and all. I have so many people in me that I can't count them all. Some are young, dumb and clunky which makes me laugh when they surface and shock people with who I am now and others are more serious. I also like to morph into animals when they are around as that makes me laugh.
I watched my father die. He had cancer and as he was winding down I vowed to honor his fate by accepting this might be my fate in time and I would accept it gladly to honor the man who gave me food/shelter/love. I held his hand at the last as he was moaning how horrible his body felt. As I was holding his hand I switched into my dreaming body and moved our assemblage points to where he would know serenity/peace and comfort. He immediately relaxed and his face went smooth and calm. When he died his assemblage point was still hooked to mine and he took me to the other side with him. I didn't expect that to happen..... What I saw was grey and bleak landscape where we go after everything has been taken from us. I really had to stalk myself at that point because I have loved ones who couldn't handle what I witnessed and if I saw them before I could move my assemblage back they would be drawn in without knowing what it is. What I and my dad saw was how temporary we are and how soon the same experience will happen to us all. I had to go back to the illusion that life is permanent and we have the luxury to behave as though we are immortal.
I had a lucid dreams with him later. The first was me sitting in the passenger's seat with my head down like I used to do while Dad drove us to the jobsite. I looked up at my Dad sitting behind the steering wheel looking ahead and said to him, "Dad, you died, what do you think about that?".
He turned his head to me and took his hands from the steering wheel, looked me in the eyes, and said to me, "Well Dan, these things happen." I immediately thought to grab the steering wheel as I woke up thinking it didn't seem to bother him that we might crash if he didn't focus on driving.
I had another lucid dream with him where I made a dream bubble for him to come and visit me with his solid dreaming body. He came inside and his body felt none of the pain. We talked for awhile and then I said, "Dad, I don't know how much longer I can keep this dream bubble open for you, are you going to be alright?" He said that he would and as the bubble collapsed I saw his dreaming body remember the pain and he sort of folded as he tried to stay solid there as long as he could and then he relaxed and disappeared back into the Nagual and I woke up.
Whatever I can do to jolt you NagualHuman I am happy to do and I wouldn't turn it down if you did the same for me.