11-25-2017, 12:00 AM
A week ago, I made a major shift with watergaze in mind as the catalyst. I did not objectify what happened. Sometimes I need to stop and do an objective inventory of what is going on.
watergaze, you must have sensed I was fumbling with my opportunity before adjusting. I jumped forward only to voluntarily go backwards into the fray. I bet that was impressive stupidity to witness.
Thank you, watergaze, for exhibiting so much patience.
I am going to talk about what happened generally for others.
I shifted into a spiritual 'upgrade'---> a more perfect vision of detachment. I got past ineptness by finally perceiving what needed to be answered.
I found two subjects in one website that encapsulated my situation. The first was Mastering Your Upgrade:
In mastery of upgrade, there is an analogy of receiving a nice car to replace a Schwinn bicycle. There are accessories to become familiar with before driving, and so one hops back on the bicycle... doesn't appreciate the car's power and advantages yet.
The second subject was Losing Your Trajectory:
In order to learn about my upgrade, I would have to put my current trajectory on hold in an intermediate state. There is concern that the same trajectory will not be recovered, and so there is some feelings of contraction. These feelings need to be stalked, because the first reaction is to not to let go.
The stark truth is I have to live without a trajectory whatsoever (for now).
It is possible I will recover what I had, but I need to separate so I can process changes. I have been on a sacred path, one involving syzygy. My life will be literally pointless without syzygy. This will be challenging (for myself, anyway).
I don't assume anything is gone, but I do know everything has shifted. I have to learn to be okay with not knowing, and be open I am leaving something old for something new. The opportunities may be modest measured against something so super-duper.
Attention needs to be fluid and focused.
Even in this unknown, what matters most is integrity. Stay objective.. have kundalini sex.
watergaze, I did not know where else to post this. Do as you will. I was truly a jerk and a terrible entity. It is not lost on me. Love to everyone. I'm mostly a decent human. In fact, watergaze is such a positive influence, I am certain I will unveil that side of me.
watergaze, you must have sensed I was fumbling with my opportunity before adjusting. I jumped forward only to voluntarily go backwards into the fray. I bet that was impressive stupidity to witness.
Thank you, watergaze, for exhibiting so much patience.
I am going to talk about what happened generally for others.
I shifted into a spiritual 'upgrade'---> a more perfect vision of detachment. I got past ineptness by finally perceiving what needed to be answered.
I found two subjects in one website that encapsulated my situation. The first was Mastering Your Upgrade:
In mastery of upgrade, there is an analogy of receiving a nice car to replace a Schwinn bicycle. There are accessories to become familiar with before driving, and so one hops back on the bicycle... doesn't appreciate the car's power and advantages yet.
The second subject was Losing Your Trajectory:
In order to learn about my upgrade, I would have to put my current trajectory on hold in an intermediate state. There is concern that the same trajectory will not be recovered, and so there is some feelings of contraction. These feelings need to be stalked, because the first reaction is to not to let go.
The stark truth is I have to live without a trajectory whatsoever (for now).
It is possible I will recover what I had, but I need to separate so I can process changes. I have been on a sacred path, one involving syzygy. My life will be literally pointless without syzygy. This will be challenging (for myself, anyway).
I don't assume anything is gone, but I do know everything has shifted. I have to learn to be okay with not knowing, and be open I am leaving something old for something new. The opportunities may be modest measured against something so super-duper.
Attention needs to be fluid and focused.
Even in this unknown, what matters most is integrity. Stay objective.. have kundalini sex.
watergaze, I did not know where else to post this. Do as you will. I was truly a jerk and a terrible entity. It is not lost on me. Love to everyone. I'm mostly a decent human. In fact, watergaze is such a positive influence, I am certain I will unveil that side of me.