Power and clarity balance

[Tryingclown]

I realize I atract knowledge/power and it's frightening. I think I lack clarity to handle the power. I think this has to do with the fact I praticed the not-doing of writing and drawing all these years. I do have some clarity now but I wonder If my path is that rocky and that makes me tremble. I have anxiety attacks sometimes. Just being on the street and suddenly feel very anxious without knowing why and running back home and take a shower. But maybe it's just a phase but does anyone have any suggestions to make things more balanced?
I really think my perception is powerfull but lacks clarity. Everything seems to weigh too much.