12-07-2018, 12:00 AM
Ahhh... YES! YES! YES! Referencing the co-worker conflict above - Another gift has come out of it!
I see how my need for social acceptance has led me to keep company with some shady characters that do not have my best interests at heart.
OMG! I am recapping when I did that as a kid. Not only did I compromise myself, I actually took their side in making fun of me! I was willing to denigrate myself for a few laughs and the illusion of fitting in for a moment.
Of course I don't "fit in" and I never truly will! I don't want what they want and therefore cannot confirm to their way.
I know I'm making some clear judgments here, however, I am also owning what I see. If I'm so willing to compromise then I'm definitely a shady character. I think that deep deep down we all really do want the same thing, and that is freedom. However, most of us believe that the fulfilling of our agenda is what will lead to freedom. LOL!
And also in fighting this battle, I did make mistakes, however, I absolutely refused to compromise my integrity!
I see how my need for social acceptance has led me to keep company with some shady characters that do not have my best interests at heart.
OMG! I am recapping when I did that as a kid. Not only did I compromise myself, I actually took their side in making fun of me! I was willing to denigrate myself for a few laughs and the illusion of fitting in for a moment.
Of course I don't "fit in" and I never truly will! I don't want what they want and therefore cannot confirm to their way.
I know I'm making some clear judgments here, however, I am also owning what I see. If I'm so willing to compromise then I'm definitely a shady character. I think that deep deep down we all really do want the same thing, and that is freedom. However, most of us believe that the fulfilling of our agenda is what will lead to freedom. LOL!
And also in fighting this battle, I did make mistakes, however, I absolutely refused to compromise my integrity!