12-15-2018, 12:00 AM
The lazy way of non-judgment. Basically I was saying that once I found that I don't have to judge and how comfy that is... and what good effects that has... a lot less emotional drama and entanglements. It was freeing. So why get into that again if one can keep out of it? I guess I was hoping this was the best way of doing things.
The metaphor I used was that judgment was a muscle and this muscle got a big workout during my life. I was figuring out that I don't have to use this muscle. In general, humans are lazy creatures. If one doesn't have to use the muscle and spend energy on doing it then they might be tempted not to.
But I found out, sadly, that not judging it is not a solve all kinda method. At least not at my stage. And there were some negative effects that could have been avoided if I just kicked myself in the butt to judge a little during a time when I was all in the wooaa I don't have to judge stuff stage. I had to admit to myself I didn't want to judge because it was comfortable not to. I guess I was indulging in it.
The metaphor I used was that judgment was a muscle and this muscle got a big workout during my life. I was figuring out that I don't have to use this muscle. In general, humans are lazy creatures. If one doesn't have to use the muscle and spend energy on doing it then they might be tempted not to.
But I found out, sadly, that not judging it is not a solve all kinda method. At least not at my stage. And there were some negative effects that could have been avoided if I just kicked myself in the butt to judge a little during a time when I was all in the wooaa I don't have to judge stuff stage. I had to admit to myself I didn't want to judge because it was comfortable not to. I guess I was indulging in it.