02-25-2015, 12:01 AM
Absyllyon wrote:He doesn't like yuku. So shortly will only have a blog which is filled with glitz, glamour, all things astounding and never ending self promotion.
As time went on I kept up my gazing practices along with exercises of attention and sensing my body periodically during the day. I placed allot of awareness on the chest area when doing sittings (attention exercises) . For me one of the most powerful exercises was to imagine the Divine Mother in her aspect of Kali decapitating me or thrusting a sword through me chest. The imagery was in response to pleading conscious awareness of my low being behaviour. I would do this until I felt the pain of my sin (distorting awareness) and tears flowed with remorse. The taste of her sword became real and I started to feel a gratitude for my life that opened my chest up wide.
I think what I was doing ever increasingly was creating polarity within myself, and this polarity created a kind of energetic tension, and with the tension my energy grew.Focusing your meditation on having the source of everything chop you and destroy you??? I strongly doubt Lujan Matus taught you to do that!! The fierceness of Mother Kali is reserved for Her enemies
not for those whom She loves. You should have been focusing on Her love, not Her Wrath against you, for crying out loud!!
Well, I am no great teacher. I still have much to learn. At best I can heal myself. As for others...well...I can offer suggestions
For better or worse, that's about it. I wish you well, but I am no...nagual
As time went on I kept up my gazing practices along with exercises of attention and sensing my body periodically during the day. I placed allot of awareness on the chest area when doing sittings (attention exercises) . For me one of the most powerful exercises was to imagine the Divine Mother in her aspect of Kali decapitating me or thrusting a sword through me chest. The imagery was in response to pleading conscious awareness of my low being behaviour. I would do this until I felt the pain of my sin (distorting awareness) and tears flowed with remorse. The taste of her sword became real and I started to feel a gratitude for my life that opened my chest up wide.
I think what I was doing ever increasingly was creating polarity within myself, and this polarity created a kind of energetic tension, and with the tension my energy grew.Focusing your meditation on having the source of everything chop you and destroy you??? I strongly doubt Lujan Matus taught you to do that!! The fierceness of Mother Kali is reserved for Her enemies
not for those whom She loves. You should have been focusing on Her love, not Her Wrath against you, for crying out loud!!
Well, I am no great teacher. I still have much to learn. At best I can heal myself. As for others...well...I can offer suggestions
For better or worse, that's about it. I wish you well, but I am no...nagual