04-26-2015, 12:02 AM
Uspensky said that at the end of an ascending octave we meet
the devil who invariably dislodges us from our assent, which heralds the
beginning of a descending octave. The power of the warrior, his training,
fundamental understanding of esoteric matters and how he has structured his
psychological data will be put through the grinder of life and be flayed by the
winds of spirit.
LM is my devil this time round. As a result of empathic
blending and intentionally using words to upset me in such a manner as to destabilize
my partially consolidated power, my
energy body is dispersed and much energy lost.
It has been an extraordinarily difficult task for me to
distinguish between the man and the teaching; to put the man aside and take
the lessons I have learned and move on. He is a fake Nagual; a man weakened by
his boasting, narcissism and penchant for trying to control the impressions of
others - that is enough to put aside the veil of glamour he shields himself with.
For posterity I will
state that whilst in his company he continually boasted about his physical
feats and attributes. He conveyed excessive concern about how youthful he
looked and pressured my impressions to see him as such. He was dismissive and
reactive to me not sensing his chi.These points show many holes in his facade in my view. As an empath I take exception to his behaviour
and realize that I must be judicious in containing my energy within tight
boundaries.
My lessons have been severe. As my attention gathers power and
duration I feel an influx of energy and an emerging objectivity. Instead of injustice, there is a sense of
been a warrior accepting the gifts of life in whatever form they appear,
whether they are brutal or gentle is not important.
This is perhaps all I have to say about the man L ujan M atus. About me, well there is the open road ahead....
the devil who invariably dislodges us from our assent, which heralds the
beginning of a descending octave. The power of the warrior, his training,
fundamental understanding of esoteric matters and how he has structured his
psychological data will be put through the grinder of life and be flayed by the
winds of spirit.
LM is my devil this time round. As a result of empathic
blending and intentionally using words to upset me in such a manner as to destabilize
my partially consolidated power, my
energy body is dispersed and much energy lost.
It has been an extraordinarily difficult task for me to
distinguish between the man and the teaching; to put the man aside and take
the lessons I have learned and move on. He is a fake Nagual; a man weakened by
his boasting, narcissism and penchant for trying to control the impressions of
others - that is enough to put aside the veil of glamour he shields himself with.
For posterity I will
state that whilst in his company he continually boasted about his physical
feats and attributes. He conveyed excessive concern about how youthful he
looked and pressured my impressions to see him as such. He was dismissive and
reactive to me not sensing his chi.These points show many holes in his facade in my view. As an empath I take exception to his behaviour
and realize that I must be judicious in containing my energy within tight
boundaries.
My lessons have been severe. As my attention gathers power and
duration I feel an influx of energy and an emerging objectivity. Instead of injustice, there is a sense of
been a warrior accepting the gifts of life in whatever form they appear,
whether they are brutal or gentle is not important.
This is perhaps all I have to say about the man L ujan M atus. About me, well there is the open road ahead....