05-14-2018, 12:00 AM
Most of my apprenticeship was me being attacked by him, being forced to spy on secret societies plans and what esoteric techniques they used, being forced to steal power from magicians, having every flaw in my life pointed out and being guilted (eg. having to say "sorry" in order to receive relief from what I was experiencing), being groomed to become "Maitreya" and later the return of Yeshua (Jesus).
I didn't like it at all. I wanted to learnt techniques directly from Lujan The Double and I think he may have taught me a few things, but he also made me steal alot of it too from others. Some who I stole power from would try to kill me in my sleep. "But it was all for the good" that I attacked them and stole their power because those chinese sorcerer's "tried to kill Lo Ban's grandson" (what I was told) and now I was apart of Lujan's clan or something. It's us vs. the sorcerer's. And apparently I was being attacked in my sleep one time and "nearly died" (according to Lujan-The Double) by the same sorcerer's I was forced to spy on/attack/steal power from and was told that Lo Ban saved my life (who made an appearance in my dream, very funny and nice guy, the whole dream changed...it wasn't a normal dream. There was a certain energy to him and the whole dream in general. I met his character.)
Anyway, I don't use those techniques I learned anymore or the knowledge I learned. I have no honor for Lujan, he dishonored me. He gave me a pseudo-apprenticeship. I would've become a better person anyway. I started following some form of mysticism and was interested in buddhism.
His presence in my life has been worthless. I'm glad for everyone who does have a good relationship with him and learns directly with him without being attacked. I was told that I'm different because I'm a colored individual and he didn't like "my kind" studying toltec knowledge. Now I'm left with traumatic experiences and knowledge that isn't what I had asked for, I wanted an apprenticeship, not to spy on other sorcerer's and learn their secret techniques.
I didn't like it at all. I wanted to learnt techniques directly from Lujan The Double and I think he may have taught me a few things, but he also made me steal alot of it too from others. Some who I stole power from would try to kill me in my sleep. "But it was all for the good" that I attacked them and stole their power because those chinese sorcerer's "tried to kill Lo Ban's grandson" (what I was told) and now I was apart of Lujan's clan or something. It's us vs. the sorcerer's. And apparently I was being attacked in my sleep one time and "nearly died" (according to Lujan-The Double) by the same sorcerer's I was forced to spy on/attack/steal power from and was told that Lo Ban saved my life (who made an appearance in my dream, very funny and nice guy, the whole dream changed...it wasn't a normal dream. There was a certain energy to him and the whole dream in general. I met his character.)
Anyway, I don't use those techniques I learned anymore or the knowledge I learned. I have no honor for Lujan, he dishonored me. He gave me a pseudo-apprenticeship. I would've become a better person anyway. I started following some form of mysticism and was interested in buddhism.
His presence in my life has been worthless. I'm glad for everyone who does have a good relationship with him and learns directly with him without being attacked. I was told that I'm different because I'm a colored individual and he didn't like "my kind" studying toltec knowledge. Now I'm left with traumatic experiences and knowledge that isn't what I had asked for, I wanted an apprenticeship, not to spy on other sorcerer's and learn their secret techniques.