02-05-2018, 12:00 AM
DoktorGreen wrote:
When the ego/flier/mind takes control, there is a possibility to become aware of it by feeling a 'pressure" of sorts in the face or just in front of the face. With just a bit of attention you can feel it. By sweeping it away with your hands, like a smudge fan, you can clear it and perceive with clarity. Be aggressive in your sweeping and repeat until you no longer feel it. This begets balance automatically.
thank you very much. Another:
back in the summer I had a terrible night and I ended interning myself in psychiatry for 2 weeks in the morning.
what happened?
I got out of my girlf car and went home. I saw a big moth flying to a field, clear. it was a big moth really.
In my bedroom I don't remember what I did to begin with but an image appeared on my laptop out of nothing, of a book (bible I had got) and I instantly looked at the bible on the desk and the paper on top of the bible shot up like a butterfly. instantly I felt a very unpleasant "wind" behind me, very slow moving (I was in my bed room, window closed I am sure) very very "cold" wind and I said to myself "its the ally, its here"
the night was a terror! I asked for help to my mother on her bed, i saw moving shadows lurking in the walls to the dark, I felt bad on my belly like it had life or smtg going out like slow smoke. I actually thought I was done. my mind felt like it was a temple (this is a metaphor) that was under attack by winds and earthquacke and was going to begone!
eventually daytime come and I felt better, exausted but decided to go for a walk and to a morning cafe. I felt very sad.
I have to say that during the afternoon I seemed to be preparing something. I was thinking in allies. I am very wishfull and wondered if one ally would kind of metamorphose-appear through my house cleaning maid. when I saw her darken glasses I though she was kind of drakula.
recently I was at night trying to think of this and the energy in my bedroom got bad, I felt very bad. I managed it up, though.
It was traumatic. How do I deal with traumas?
When the ego/flier/mind takes control, there is a possibility to become aware of it by feeling a 'pressure" of sorts in the face or just in front of the face. With just a bit of attention you can feel it. By sweeping it away with your hands, like a smudge fan, you can clear it and perceive with clarity. Be aggressive in your sweeping and repeat until you no longer feel it. This begets balance automatically.
thank you very much. Another:
back in the summer I had a terrible night and I ended interning myself in psychiatry for 2 weeks in the morning.
what happened?
I got out of my girlf car and went home. I saw a big moth flying to a field, clear. it was a big moth really.
In my bedroom I don't remember what I did to begin with but an image appeared on my laptop out of nothing, of a book (bible I had got) and I instantly looked at the bible on the desk and the paper on top of the bible shot up like a butterfly. instantly I felt a very unpleasant "wind" behind me, very slow moving (I was in my bed room, window closed I am sure) very very "cold" wind and I said to myself "its the ally, its here"
the night was a terror! I asked for help to my mother on her bed, i saw moving shadows lurking in the walls to the dark, I felt bad on my belly like it had life or smtg going out like slow smoke. I actually thought I was done. my mind felt like it was a temple (this is a metaphor) that was under attack by winds and earthquacke and was going to begone!
eventually daytime come and I felt better, exausted but decided to go for a walk and to a morning cafe. I felt very sad.
I have to say that during the afternoon I seemed to be preparing something. I was thinking in allies. I am very wishfull and wondered if one ally would kind of metamorphose-appear through my house cleaning maid. when I saw her darken glasses I though she was kind of drakula.
recently I was at night trying to think of this and the energy in my bedroom got bad, I felt very bad. I managed it up, though.
It was traumatic. How do I deal with traumas?