I need advice

[serloco]

The first step to silencing the internal dialogue is the nutritional uptake of specialised knowledge. Indeed the mind is carefully formed into pathways, and these pathways dictate the formation of a healthy mind. For example close observation of the mind, the consciousness itself, will reveal that thoughts and ideas happen first, then the ideas, the realisations, are translated into dialogue. The problem is we talk to much. Why do we need to talk about our ideas, and need to translate them at all? We can see the ideas and understand them perfectly without translation into language. So the first step is realising this, then the second step is careful observation of the thought process. Examine your ideas, the sparks of neurons forming ideas, and awareness itself. Focus on the spark and not the dialogue. Intend to remove the dialogue. It all start with intent, and focus. 

If you need help with agitation I recommend lemon balm and lavender oils. The inhalation of these chemicals calms the mind, along with the deep breath you take.