11-16-2017, 12:00 AM
watergaze wrote:
If you are training in a good way, you do not become dangerously unstable. Certain aspects of CC's teachings are meant to help the AP shift and loosen up its habitual grip - not doings are among there. It frees up energy. Other aspects of the teachings have theeffectt of balancing and grounding - stabilizing.
It is good to not have too much free roaming energy if you are not stable enough - if you have not worked on your balance and stability. Balance and stability link to having done important recap (which ofc also frees up energy but also balances), self-stalking, straightening out some bends and unhealthy emotional responses, etc. If you have not done enough in this department and you have a lot of freed up energy, it might put pressure on parts of you that are weaker - hence causing unhealthy states and emotions. Parts that are weaker are usually parts where you had trouble before.
No one aspect of teaching is to be done to a big degree on its own. The teachings offer more things that should be practiced in unison. Self-stalking is terribly important. You need to know yourself and your weak points (and find strategies to help heal those) as well as strong points. We are, of course, learning these things about ourselves all the time.
How is this uncontrolled state/behavior of yours manifesting?
I started writing a response to you right after you posted this post, but sadly did not finish in the time I had and could not post it. One of the things I advised you to do right away in that, if you are taking any kind of 'natural' drugs to stop taking them right away: alcohol, weed, tobacco... and such. Each of these also has the effect of destabilizing the AP. You do not need that right now.
Have you been going to a psychiatrist before? or would this be a first visit? Though you do say the anxiety is happening again, so the state has been repeating and you are familiar with it. How did you approach / deal with it in the past?
Inner dialogue talking is nothing that much out of the ordinary - if I imagine correctly what you mean by that.... (which I might not be doing correctly). I suggest you do breathing exercises - look in The Tonal - Word Today at the breathing thread. I would have maybe said to try surface (as in not very deep) meditation to quite down the ID, but with your instability I'd rather not because meditation is quite a deep rabbit hole sometimes and I wouldn't want you to by some accident fall into it when you are already unstable
. So be careful /cautios with that.
(if you look at the breathing videos you will learn that these techniques have been greatly successful for, for example, was veterans with PTSD - and they had some serios 'agitation'. You can do some more research to find details about this)
Bear in mind... fear is the first enemy of man. In general, fear needs to be faced by a warrior. Not medicated. If it is just too much then it is on you to decide, it is your responsibility to know yourself and to not damage your body/mind, live to fight another day - but no one can tell you when to back off because no one knows you that well (doctor knows some general information of who things work but they do not know your specific body and mind either). This is of course the warrior way and should be used by people who are into a warrior's way of living. A warrior is, throughout his life, learning how to withstand various kinds of pressure. It is preparation for being able to withstand the pressure of the unknown.
What I would recommend to you... and bear in mind you gave too little description of your case and not enough detail... stop doing exercises that destabilize /loosen the AP. Instead, start doing things that stabilize and heal: recap, self-stalking, connecting to nature (possibly also a soul retrieval or a shamanic extraction - cause if you have done psychadelic drugs and/or medicated yourself it might make sense to check that you did not do some damage to yourself without intending to).
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since I have been writing this response on the side, I see there are a couple of responses now. I am totally behind what Pixie says here: "If you're struggling then you should step away from this by grounding yourself in tonal reality until you're ready to try again."
Bear in mind the inner dialigue might have become a bit stronger as a natural strategy of your being to ground yourself in the here reality. ID is a greatly useful tool. In that sense it might be helping you even if it is a bit distracting. Of course if your ID is such that it talks about stuff that gets you anxios then it's another matter altogether. Your description of your case keeps a lot to be desired
. If your ID is detrimental, you can try to steer it a bit - like with breathing, or say you can read a book (the ID will be reading the words and not going on about something that makes you anxios), etc. Play some music, sing some songs... do a sport that helps silence your mind...
And, ofc, serloco mentions the nutrients and such. Eat healthy food too
It seems your awareness/attention has a hard time to focus, this is a typical symptom of not being grounded enough.
I'm trying very hard to get the tone of this right and not just sound like a jerk... but I'm probably still just going to sound like a jerk.
A lot of these suggestions assume he has plenty of money and free time. He may have no control at all over the kinds of food he gets to eat.
If you are training in a good way, you do not become dangerously unstable. Certain aspects of CC's teachings are meant to help the AP shift and loosen up its habitual grip - not doings are among there. It frees up energy. Other aspects of the teachings have theeffectt of balancing and grounding - stabilizing.
It is good to not have too much free roaming energy if you are not stable enough - if you have not worked on your balance and stability. Balance and stability link to having done important recap (which ofc also frees up energy but also balances), self-stalking, straightening out some bends and unhealthy emotional responses, etc. If you have not done enough in this department and you have a lot of freed up energy, it might put pressure on parts of you that are weaker - hence causing unhealthy states and emotions. Parts that are weaker are usually parts where you had trouble before.
No one aspect of teaching is to be done to a big degree on its own. The teachings offer more things that should be practiced in unison. Self-stalking is terribly important. You need to know yourself and your weak points (and find strategies to help heal those) as well as strong points. We are, of course, learning these things about ourselves all the time.
How is this uncontrolled state/behavior of yours manifesting?
I started writing a response to you right after you posted this post, but sadly did not finish in the time I had and could not post it. One of the things I advised you to do right away in that, if you are taking any kind of 'natural' drugs to stop taking them right away: alcohol, weed, tobacco... and such. Each of these also has the effect of destabilizing the AP. You do not need that right now.
Have you been going to a psychiatrist before? or would this be a first visit? Though you do say the anxiety is happening again, so the state has been repeating and you are familiar with it. How did you approach / deal with it in the past?
Inner dialogue talking is nothing that much out of the ordinary - if I imagine correctly what you mean by that.... (which I might not be doing correctly). I suggest you do breathing exercises - look in The Tonal - Word Today at the breathing thread. I would have maybe said to try surface (as in not very deep) meditation to quite down the ID, but with your instability I'd rather not because meditation is quite a deep rabbit hole sometimes and I wouldn't want you to by some accident fall into it when you are already unstable
. So be careful /cautios with that.(if you look at the breathing videos you will learn that these techniques have been greatly successful for, for example, was veterans with PTSD - and they had some serios 'agitation'. You can do some more research to find details about this)
Bear in mind... fear is the first enemy of man. In general, fear needs to be faced by a warrior. Not medicated. If it is just too much then it is on you to decide, it is your responsibility to know yourself and to not damage your body/mind, live to fight another day - but no one can tell you when to back off because no one knows you that well (doctor knows some general information of who things work but they do not know your specific body and mind either). This is of course the warrior way and should be used by people who are into a warrior's way of living. A warrior is, throughout his life, learning how to withstand various kinds of pressure. It is preparation for being able to withstand the pressure of the unknown.
What I would recommend to you... and bear in mind you gave too little description of your case and not enough detail... stop doing exercises that destabilize /loosen the AP. Instead, start doing things that stabilize and heal: recap, self-stalking, connecting to nature (possibly also a soul retrieval or a shamanic extraction - cause if you have done psychadelic drugs and/or medicated yourself it might make sense to check that you did not do some damage to yourself without intending to).
---
since I have been writing this response on the side, I see there are a couple of responses now. I am totally behind what Pixie says here: "If you're struggling then you should step away from this by grounding yourself in tonal reality until you're ready to try again."
Bear in mind the inner dialigue might have become a bit stronger as a natural strategy of your being to ground yourself in the here reality. ID is a greatly useful tool. In that sense it might be helping you even if it is a bit distracting. Of course if your ID is such that it talks about stuff that gets you anxios then it's another matter altogether. Your description of your case keeps a lot to be desired
. If your ID is detrimental, you can try to steer it a bit - like with breathing, or say you can read a book (the ID will be reading the words and not going on about something that makes you anxios), etc. Play some music, sing some songs... do a sport that helps silence your mind...And, ofc, serloco mentions the nutrients and such. Eat healthy food too
It seems your awareness/attention has a hard time to focus, this is a typical symptom of not being grounded enough.
I'm trying very hard to get the tone of this right and not just sound like a jerk... but I'm probably still just going to sound like a jerk.
A lot of these suggestions assume he has plenty of money and free time. He may have no control at all over the kinds of food he gets to eat.