12-05-2017, 12:00 AM
glance left wrote:
Pixie Dust wrote:
Tryingclown wrote:
I did the lobster's strike (a magical passe) and obviously my AP moved. I want to go back to normal. how do I go about. I don't like this!
Once you go black, you never go back.
Good point.
It's scary shifting away from the habitual position of the AP, I know. I mean...what am I gonna do with all this space...this empty potential...this terrifying freedom....without the boredom, depression, lack of energy/awareness, lack of impetus, slavery to addiction/diversion...without the slow, lazy current of sewage of social torpor to tell me what to do from day to day?!!!
I've heard it said that its a dark day when the warrior finally frees him/herself from the oppression of the internal dialog/flyer mind. The noose finally cut from around my neck.......now what??!
Glance left:
Thank you for your comforting words. I do feel better now and I also like the way you think, nominating the oh-so-good things (sarcasm..) and then kind of make a joke out of us. It's nice.
I managed to go to sleep and I'm doing really good today. It all just made sense or rather I now only go foward If I feel it does make sense. This is comforting and has to do of course with stalking. I'm beginnning to stalk myself more and others too. I feel nice knowing I can stalk others and I was surprised to realize, it seems, that such an activity is not nasty to others, on the contrary as I read in a website concerning these issues what happens is you really free energy and that permits you, as a hunter, to move foward safely and in a very controlled way. This is what I felt when I stalked my father on the sofa. It was something for me.
I am getting hold of the feeling of <something making sense>. It is very pleasant and I'm thinking about the verb "buttresting" that Don Juan used concerning stalkers and the poems' jolt.
Pixie Dust, your words were kind of terrorizing. -_- ahah yikes!
So what am I doing now? I'm planning to go to bed but only will do so when it <makes sense> to me. That's how I keep it real. I'm am very dedicated to avoid erratic behaviours or maneuvres that put me in a not-good predicament. so now that i have found a safe haven I am dedicated to keep it.
For some reason I thought of AC/DC yesterday when I was to go about the elevator, If I correctly recall. The first album with Brian Johnson, it won some prize. I also thought about their album from just a couple of years ago, Black Ice.
So: Life has been erratic these last years. now a chance to make it not a roller-coaster ride where I end up accumulating bad stuff. that's how it has been.... that's how it has been... it has been bad... i rest my HELLO here! ARR
Pixie Dust wrote:
Tryingclown wrote:
I did the lobster's strike (a magical passe) and obviously my AP moved. I want to go back to normal. how do I go about. I don't like this!
Once you go black, you never go back.
Good point. It's scary shifting away from the habitual position of the AP, I know. I mean...what am I gonna do with all this space...this empty potential...this terrifying freedom....without the boredom, depression, lack of energy/awareness, lack of impetus, slavery to addiction/diversion...without the slow, lazy current of sewage of social torpor to tell me what to do from day to day?!!!
I've heard it said that its a dark day when the warrior finally frees him/herself from the oppression of the internal dialog/flyer mind. The noose finally cut from around my neck.......now what??!
Glance left:
Thank you for your comforting words. I do feel better now and I also like the way you think, nominating the oh-so-good things (sarcasm..) and then kind of make a joke out of us. It's nice.
I managed to go to sleep and I'm doing really good today. It all just made sense or rather I now only go foward If I feel it does make sense. This is comforting and has to do of course with stalking. I'm beginnning to stalk myself more and others too. I feel nice knowing I can stalk others and I was surprised to realize, it seems, that such an activity is not nasty to others, on the contrary as I read in a website concerning these issues what happens is you really free energy and that permits you, as a hunter, to move foward safely and in a very controlled way. This is what I felt when I stalked my father on the sofa. It was something for me.
I am getting hold of the feeling of <something making sense>. It is very pleasant and I'm thinking about the verb "buttresting" that Don Juan used concerning stalkers and the poems' jolt.
Pixie Dust, your words were kind of terrorizing. -_- ahah yikes!
So what am I doing now? I'm planning to go to bed but only will do so when it <makes sense> to me. That's how I keep it real. I'm am very dedicated to avoid erratic behaviours or maneuvres that put me in a not-good predicament. so now that i have found a safe haven I am dedicated to keep it.
For some reason I thought of AC/DC yesterday when I was to go about the elevator, If I correctly recall. The first album with Brian Johnson, it won some prize. I also thought about their album from just a couple of years ago, Black Ice.
So: Life has been erratic these last years. now a chance to make it not a roller-coaster ride where I end up accumulating bad stuff. that's how it has been.... that's how it has been... it has been bad... i rest my HELLO here! ARR