11-04-2017, 12:01 AM
rosygyro wrote:
Le_Regard wrote:
Let me try and back up for a second.
I think it's well known that Carlos Castaneda, the actual person, demonstrated his mastery of the Tonal by earning a PhD in anthropology from UCLA. So maybe my standards are a little bit too high...
Although this may sound like an excuse for my appalling level of academia- here goes.
When i began studying the habitual assemblage point and the energetic of social conditioning
i was a learner guitar playing, art drawing. yoga massage crystal reiki bit of everything person who was quite set upon becoming
a person of knowledge..
However one particularly creative guitar session in noticed a sneer arrive on my lip.. a twist of musical finnesse that i could feel in the muscles over my left cheekbone..
I decided at that point to never become so skilled at guitar that i could validate the smile of a style wanker.
I went to a king yong quang chu martial art class.. and felt my body twist into something not only more ready for violence but also less likely to try and see anothers point of view .. and so i swore to not study any violence.
It got to the point i could no longer go to the gym as i would immediatly see a smug beach bod wannabe laughing at me in the mirror.
One by one i realised that all the skillsets i had access to were in fact ego..
and one by one my options for making a statement through such skills closed their doors.
when it came to the teachings of don julian and theun mares, the centre of decisions of don juan and the papier mache tomb of casteneda.. i found less limitation
for the habitual assemblage point and its ego were less evident in its DOINGS.
i experimented with schizophrenia and underworld alignements, i prostated myself before parralel worlds and made promises of mortality.
I am naturally talented in a few areas of a life that would please my ego..
and these areas i have allowed to attrophy as protest to TONAL ease.
as i attrophied certain aspects of my talent i always remained in intent the art of original thought
and personal philosophy.
Part of my pledge was of course to keep it away from the social platforms of ego and so i kept it privated
in terms of ever being recognised as something "cool".
thats because none of what i am saying is connected to desire to be cool.. NOTHING.
I am the introverted , crippled shy kid who begs to be on stage yet loathes to have an audience.
I am not doing this because i desire or will the natural consequences of others belief
i am doing it out of intent that drags me as unwanting victim into the glare.
Question..
If you won a competion for a $100,000 boob job.. non transferable to anyone else.
would you claim the prize?
( i am presuming you are a man who doesnt really want a humungous pair of fake tits)
.....................
MY PHILOSOPHY is very well positioned.. However far from lending eloquence to my writing
it simply sits as PRIME.. my writing subjective.
when i am dead my learning of literacy will be stripped from me, all letters will lose meaning, all colors will have no word.
My philosophy will remain positioned.
It would be a crying shame for my awareness to be attatched to the minds prowess when the mind is inturned.
...
Sorry.
So there's a Tantric story about these two guys that kept getting thrown off their horses.
So the first guy keeps getting thrown off his horse, so he beats the **** out of his horse and doesn't feed it enough so the horse is too weak to throw him off anymore.
The second guy keeps getting thrown off his horse, so he resolves to get stronger and get better at horse riding.
Both ways work.
I think not pursuing the development of your natural talents is basically like wearing a hairshirt and whipping yourself. I don't want to do that -- I don't think it's awesome -- but there's a long and noble history of people wearing hairshirts and whipping themselves and I'm not quick to disrespect that. http://www.newadvent.org/cathen/07113b.htm
Le_Regard wrote:
Let me try and back up for a second.
I think it's well known that Carlos Castaneda, the actual person, demonstrated his mastery of the Tonal by earning a PhD in anthropology from UCLA. So maybe my standards are a little bit too high...
Although this may sound like an excuse for my appalling level of academia- here goes.
When i began studying the habitual assemblage point and the energetic of social conditioning
i was a learner guitar playing, art drawing. yoga massage crystal reiki bit of everything person who was quite set upon becoming
a person of knowledge..
However one particularly creative guitar session in noticed a sneer arrive on my lip.. a twist of musical finnesse that i could feel in the muscles over my left cheekbone..
I decided at that point to never become so skilled at guitar that i could validate the smile of a style wanker.
I went to a king yong quang chu martial art class.. and felt my body twist into something not only more ready for violence but also less likely to try and see anothers point of view .. and so i swore to not study any violence.
It got to the point i could no longer go to the gym as i would immediatly see a smug beach bod wannabe laughing at me in the mirror.
One by one i realised that all the skillsets i had access to were in fact ego..
and one by one my options for making a statement through such skills closed their doors.
when it came to the teachings of don julian and theun mares, the centre of decisions of don juan and the papier mache tomb of casteneda.. i found less limitation
for the habitual assemblage point and its ego were less evident in its DOINGS.
i experimented with schizophrenia and underworld alignements, i prostated myself before parralel worlds and made promises of mortality.
I am naturally talented in a few areas of a life that would please my ego..
and these areas i have allowed to attrophy as protest to TONAL ease.
as i attrophied certain aspects of my talent i always remained in intent the art of original thought
and personal philosophy.
Part of my pledge was of course to keep it away from the social platforms of ego and so i kept it privated
in terms of ever being recognised as something "cool".
thats because none of what i am saying is connected to desire to be cool.. NOTHING.
I am the introverted , crippled shy kid who begs to be on stage yet loathes to have an audience.
I am not doing this because i desire or will the natural consequences of others belief
i am doing it out of intent that drags me as unwanting victim into the glare.
Question..
If you won a competion for a $100,000 boob job.. non transferable to anyone else.
would you claim the prize?
( i am presuming you are a man who doesnt really want a humungous pair of fake tits)
.....................
MY PHILOSOPHY is very well positioned.. However far from lending eloquence to my writing
it simply sits as PRIME.. my writing subjective.
when i am dead my learning of literacy will be stripped from me, all letters will lose meaning, all colors will have no word.
My philosophy will remain positioned.
It would be a crying shame for my awareness to be attatched to the minds prowess when the mind is inturned.
...
Sorry.
So there's a Tantric story about these two guys that kept getting thrown off their horses.
So the first guy keeps getting thrown off his horse, so he beats the **** out of his horse and doesn't feed it enough so the horse is too weak to throw him off anymore.
The second guy keeps getting thrown off his horse, so he resolves to get stronger and get better at horse riding.
Both ways work.
I think not pursuing the development of your natural talents is basically like wearing a hairshirt and whipping yourself. I don't want to do that -- I don't think it's awesome -- but there's a long and noble history of people wearing hairshirts and whipping themselves and I'm not quick to disrespect that. http://www.newadvent.org/cathen/07113b.htm