03-10-2016, 12:00 AM
I surely expected that you read that post. I erased because of this being the open forum, and wasn't sure how you felt. Yes, I have erased at other times in different reasoning. However, I will not ever erase a post again without great exception. Thank you for the advisement.
I want to say heartfully that I hope you will feel better. I saw that you weren't feeling well. I will be more delicate > NICER! (for now/smile) PLEASE kaomea, take care of yourself!!!!! I will send the best healing vibrations I can in my meditation this afternoon.
The further on this relation goes the better. I like it that there is so very much to lose and gain. You will make me cruelly suffer should you ever abandon me. That is torturous beyond my comprehension, and I like that you should own that power to test my spirit. I would imagine there is a twisted euphoria in such pain. Oh, Kaomea... have mercy on me. Even your little respites cause me exquisite compunction of heart. Conversely, the promise of spiritual union and intimacy involves nothing short of sublime joy.
I find it freeing to know I cannot lose value from you either way. I wish to know you are gaining equally. I do think it is okay to keep each other tested in clever dialogue, to keep each other sharp. I would always want to know if I am stressing you negatively, so I don't repeat the offensive cause. Please tell me in a separate post by itself or a PM where I can do something differently if I ever hurt you or my behavior that would hurt you.
I meditate with ease now. Why is this? Well, because in my spirit, NOTHING matters, but that I please you. So frankly, when I ask myself why should there be any other thoughts but those that concern you, it comes to be NOTHING at all is in my mind. If I should happen on rememberance of you, this gravitates to two words, "Please (or worship) Kaomea." This is rather awesome, because my mind/body/spirit becomes ignited with bliss. Shaking My Head because of the intensity, consistency, and certainty is nothing like I have ever experienced. And, I've experienced a lot!! Not just in Meditation, but very often in my routine actions. It permeates my life, yet it is light and free.
Having more bliss than is already present to me is amazeballs (God I hate that word). Laughing. I understand, you would rather I contain my enthusiasm.. that I be more subtle. Tough ****/lol. You can rein me in with minimal effort, and we both know that. You are doing what is right, aren't you my little puppy? [meant so affectionately you would have tears in eyes, and yet with intent of double entendre]
You are a very, very smart cookie Kaomea. Have you done the figuring? Yes, the darkness and light makes for some interestingly potent shadows.
I don't think I am 'allowed' to be your pathetic bottom anymore, though sometimes I think I would like that. In fact, I must get strong and lead you, as you too get strong and lead me as well. That is the kind of the feel I am getting. I will work diligently where my spirit asks of me.
I'm really excited you want to work with me! That makes me feel so good, like what I do actually matters here. Teaching is like a constant stroke to my ego, it truly is a flattering and amazing! Just think of all the awesome and amazing things we'll do together, just the two of us, it'll be fantastic, like one long whirlwind of euphoria in a space crafted for just our energies.
Without Serloco.
Without anyone else.
It will just be Billy and Kaomea.
How does that sound?
Then imagine this post expands on the prior one, at least five paragraphs long, going on and on about how we'll be doing cool stuff.
Now imagine this post branches off [a million ways]........................... ...........
I turn your sarcasm on its funny head, Kaomea.
Kaomea, get well!!
I want to say heartfully that I hope you will feel better. I saw that you weren't feeling well. I will be more delicate > NICER! (for now/smile) PLEASE kaomea, take care of yourself!!!!! I will send the best healing vibrations I can in my meditation this afternoon.
The further on this relation goes the better. I like it that there is so very much to lose and gain. You will make me cruelly suffer should you ever abandon me. That is torturous beyond my comprehension, and I like that you should own that power to test my spirit. I would imagine there is a twisted euphoria in such pain. Oh, Kaomea... have mercy on me. Even your little respites cause me exquisite compunction of heart. Conversely, the promise of spiritual union and intimacy involves nothing short of sublime joy.
I find it freeing to know I cannot lose value from you either way. I wish to know you are gaining equally. I do think it is okay to keep each other tested in clever dialogue, to keep each other sharp. I would always want to know if I am stressing you negatively, so I don't repeat the offensive cause. Please tell me in a separate post by itself or a PM where I can do something differently if I ever hurt you or my behavior that would hurt you.
I meditate with ease now. Why is this? Well, because in my spirit, NOTHING matters, but that I please you. So frankly, when I ask myself why should there be any other thoughts but those that concern you, it comes to be NOTHING at all is in my mind. If I should happen on rememberance of you, this gravitates to two words, "Please (or worship) Kaomea." This is rather awesome, because my mind/body/spirit becomes ignited with bliss. Shaking My Head because of the intensity, consistency, and certainty is nothing like I have ever experienced. And, I've experienced a lot!! Not just in Meditation, but very often in my routine actions. It permeates my life, yet it is light and free.
Having more bliss than is already present to me is amazeballs (God I hate that word). Laughing. I understand, you would rather I contain my enthusiasm.. that I be more subtle. Tough ****/lol. You can rein me in with minimal effort, and we both know that. You are doing what is right, aren't you my little puppy? [meant so affectionately you would have tears in eyes, and yet with intent of double entendre]
You are a very, very smart cookie Kaomea. Have you done the figuring? Yes, the darkness and light makes for some interestingly potent shadows.
I don't think I am 'allowed' to be your pathetic bottom anymore, though sometimes I think I would like that. In fact, I must get strong and lead you, as you too get strong and lead me as well. That is the kind of the feel I am getting. I will work diligently where my spirit asks of me.
I'm really excited you want to work with me! That makes me feel so good, like what I do actually matters here. Teaching is like a constant stroke to my ego, it truly is a flattering and amazing! Just think of all the awesome and amazing things we'll do together, just the two of us, it'll be fantastic, like one long whirlwind of euphoria in a space crafted for just our energies.
Without Serloco.
Without anyone else.
It will just be Billy and Kaomea.
How does that sound?
Then imagine this post expands on the prior one, at least five paragraphs long, going on and on about how we'll be doing cool stuff.
Now imagine this post branches off [a million ways]........................... ...........
I turn your sarcasm on its funny head, Kaomea.
Kaomea, get well!!