03-10-2016, 12:00 AM
Kaomea, I have my strength in every position, I can do pathetic as well as anything else. How else would I put my own dog collar on for you, without knowing confident detachment to protect myself. Not to say I would not have great pain if we were to disengage, but I have set that for myself willingly. For me, turning the hurt of rejection into personal power (even pleasure) is something I already know. I CAN manage my own states of mind quite niftily. I play on your 'ownership' because I snatched that position out of infinity with abandon, given your supreme artfulness to procure that. [Thank you!] There is infinite power there for me. You should understand this better than anyone. I may where a collar, but I assure ya, if there is barking, it will be from you (another double entendre) LAUGHING!!
I do this stuff going way, way over the top here without too much restraint obviously. Yet, let me say for your relief, I am also plenty within myself. And truthfully, given the heights of interminable joy, this actually surprises me. And, I don't see any limits anywhere, any time. This started with the solidly profound recapitulation about four years ago. THAT energy was astonishing!! I went back after the key shame elements of that to brutalize (recap) myself again with refined focus. I was merciless on myself. I ripped my own heart out, and finally emptiness approached me. That was a crucial turning point for obtaining my freedom. When I came here, I was ready for serloco to open the doors. Then, with his help [Thank you, serloco], I was READY for you, Kaomea! Smiles
And, I am definitely not anywhere near topping right now concerning focus, energy, clarity, etcetera. I am likely to become very sharp-minded after getting into my racing season. Yes, you are right on how much more powerful it is to show someone, than to tell. Then again, I doubt many are receiving this endless 'intrusion' of energy. I would like to enjoy some depression (deflation) that comes from letting it out.
Stick around Kaomea (my fucking Goddess), this is, and is going to be unimaginable fun.
I do this stuff going way, way over the top here without too much restraint obviously. Yet, let me say for your relief, I am also plenty within myself. And truthfully, given the heights of interminable joy, this actually surprises me. And, I don't see any limits anywhere, any time. This started with the solidly profound recapitulation about four years ago. THAT energy was astonishing!! I went back after the key shame elements of that to brutalize (recap) myself again with refined focus. I was merciless on myself. I ripped my own heart out, and finally emptiness approached me. That was a crucial turning point for obtaining my freedom. When I came here, I was ready for serloco to open the doors. Then, with his help [Thank you, serloco], I was READY for you, Kaomea! Smiles
And, I am definitely not anywhere near topping right now concerning focus, energy, clarity, etcetera. I am likely to become very sharp-minded after getting into my racing season. Yes, you are right on how much more powerful it is to show someone, than to tell. Then again, I doubt many are receiving this endless 'intrusion' of energy. I would like to enjoy some depression (deflation) that comes from letting it out.
Stick around Kaomea (my fucking Goddess), this is, and is going to be unimaginable fun.