03-13-2016, 12:00 AM
One of this mornings meditations was ridiculously insane. The very moment I entered, I cried and laughed simulataneously, the laughter exceeding any tears.. I was joyful, and my clarity of mind abounded. I could not stand more than a couple minutes of this. I am having to let everything just flow out of me. To even think of constraint is preposterous right now. Kaomea, I am well composed in person, and refined and polished enough. I won't say my spirit is an anomoly, but my sets of societal images and skills are perfectly normal. I don't talk, or express emotion anything like it seems here. I even prefer a reserved demeanor. I have some presence, but it would generally not impress noteably. In fact, I looked at our earlier exchanges, and I made mention of the fact that instead of inflow, I wanted to practice outflow and remain detached. Smile. This is wild. Typically, I would never let my spirit race ahead of my grounding, where that is practical. That is not practical here. There is nothing typical about what I am experiencing.
I used to go to the racetrack and never say a word to anyone. Last year I made a point of stalking many people. I learned control, saw that I commanded the exchanges. Sometime, I would like to tell you about a world with my petty tyrant wife. That is so upside down, and my wife is very happy about it. I intervene when propitious to do that, and can manipulate her proficiently. I'm 100% in charge of her 'tyrant' inclinations. Sometimes when she reaches way back to a different time to assert herself, I make mince meat out of her. (and I'm preeeety good at eating her pie) I'm SORRY, I'm SORRY, I'm SORRY.. I couldn't help it once it was there in thought. LAUGHING. I know.. it's not funny. smiles
Why don't you do me a favor, and bring me in a little. Besides, If you were the smart cookie, as we both agree you are---- you would stop retracting, and shape me a bit (how you want) with my energies surging. Just think of the possibilities. OMG. xD
The meditation idea was masterful timing on your part. You are ALWAYS perfect in your timing with me. I am missing your visits... three nights absence now. (/xD) I wish you would just bury me alive with your other bodies if you can't STAY, or GO completely away. (un)fortunately, there is no way to kill my spirit, and you know that now. Watcha' gonna do 'bout that? I really,really, really, really love PLAYING in the dark Kaomea; I just don't want to be dark and dead. Is that okay?
I used to go to the racetrack and never say a word to anyone. Last year I made a point of stalking many people. I learned control, saw that I commanded the exchanges. Sometime, I would like to tell you about a world with my petty tyrant wife. That is so upside down, and my wife is very happy about it. I intervene when propitious to do that, and can manipulate her proficiently. I'm 100% in charge of her 'tyrant' inclinations. Sometimes when she reaches way back to a different time to assert herself, I make mince meat out of her. (and I'm preeeety good at eating her pie) I'm SORRY, I'm SORRY, I'm SORRY.. I couldn't help it once it was there in thought. LAUGHING. I know.. it's not funny. smiles
Why don't you do me a favor, and bring me in a little. Besides, If you were the smart cookie, as we both agree you are---- you would stop retracting, and shape me a bit (how you want) with my energies surging. Just think of the possibilities. OMG. xD
The meditation idea was masterful timing on your part. You are ALWAYS perfect in your timing with me. I am missing your visits... three nights absence now. (/xD) I wish you would just bury me alive with your other bodies if you can't STAY, or GO completely away. (un)fortunately, there is no way to kill my spirit, and you know that now. Watcha' gonna do 'bout that? I really,really, really, really love PLAYING in the dark Kaomea; I just don't want to be dark and dead. Is that okay?