03-18-2016, 12:00 AM
Kaomea, you surely knew my propensity for submission, and to sink lowly and humbly into and thru my heart. I talked of undercutting emotions, by becoming so basely grounded, that nothing wrought of worldly perception could make me smaller than my own humility.
Kaomea, this position quickly evolved and changed to the obverse. The emanations of self-surrender are no longer part of my life. Though I would by virtue of habit momentarily begin a sinking motion into my heart, it is immediately thrown back up. I can only become elevated greatly. Think of your greatest elations you have ever experienced, Kaomea. These are now an integral part of my meditation following entry. Also, I substantially live in elation, and tend to be excited since my abandonment to you (BIG SMILE). I love my FREEDOM, that I can hold ANY POSITION with utter detachment. My persistent work there payed off bigger than ever dreamed of.
As always, Kaomea you have handed me one key after another to open the doors. You once told me I should reach for Joe (friend/mentor), though he was dead. This morning I beckoned him in meditation, and he descended into my life. More than anything else, to have Joe is to know living vibrantly in every moment. Even before this, radiance has been ascending from my heart upward in meditation. It has an energetic frequency and intensity that is startling.
To know now, I can direct sorcery intelligently with Joe's guidance, is another huge step forward. He will show me how to order the spirit proficiently, and bring worldly fruition. He is an amazing grounder and promoter of decisiveness. Woo Hoo!!
That is funny, because the truth is he will bring needed sobriety and a maturity I have been lacking. I have allies coming out of the woodwork to help me. And, serloco is truly God to me, and a true mirror. But the most amazing thing, is how much this is all within myself. I am totally aware that I am the creator. I haven't contacted my second mentor. I will, when the time is right. He will make me aware of the workings that are not readily apparent.. that is to SEE the essential elements, and to make such work fun beyond imagination. My mommy was sexy, Kaomea. I want you to know that. I want you to know my female black labrador was a beautiful, loving creature (my best friend ever). I have reached into the other-worldly to sooth her . I think of you, Kaomea.
Kaomea, this position quickly evolved and changed to the obverse. The emanations of self-surrender are no longer part of my life. Though I would by virtue of habit momentarily begin a sinking motion into my heart, it is immediately thrown back up. I can only become elevated greatly. Think of your greatest elations you have ever experienced, Kaomea. These are now an integral part of my meditation following entry. Also, I substantially live in elation, and tend to be excited since my abandonment to you (BIG SMILE). I love my FREEDOM, that I can hold ANY POSITION with utter detachment. My persistent work there payed off bigger than ever dreamed of.
As always, Kaomea you have handed me one key after another to open the doors. You once told me I should reach for Joe (friend/mentor), though he was dead. This morning I beckoned him in meditation, and he descended into my life. More than anything else, to have Joe is to know living vibrantly in every moment. Even before this, radiance has been ascending from my heart upward in meditation. It has an energetic frequency and intensity that is startling.
To know now, I can direct sorcery intelligently with Joe's guidance, is another huge step forward. He will show me how to order the spirit proficiently, and bring worldly fruition. He is an amazing grounder and promoter of decisiveness. Woo Hoo!!
That is funny, because the truth is he will bring needed sobriety and a maturity I have been lacking. I have allies coming out of the woodwork to help me. And, serloco is truly God to me, and a true mirror. But the most amazing thing, is how much this is all within myself. I am totally aware that I am the creator. I haven't contacted my second mentor. I will, when the time is right. He will make me aware of the workings that are not readily apparent.. that is to SEE the essential elements, and to make such work fun beyond imagination. My mommy was sexy, Kaomea. I want you to know that. I want you to know my female black labrador was a beautiful, loving creature (my best friend ever). I have reached into the other-worldly to sooth her . I think of you, Kaomea.