04-15-2016, 12:01 AM
I observed it all after April 1st. You did something very nice next early A.M. To say I was very pleased is an understatement.
However, I wasn't noticing your entangled energy was unentangling. By the following day I realized the bottom had fallen out. That is, you were completely released. I was slightly depressed, but also happy for you (for us). Still, I wanted to retreat. My meditations were subpar during all this. Still, Kaomea, I was not having emotional swings; I am watching all of it in steady stillness.
I thought of what had just happened, and sometimes caught up on deprived sleep. For days I was in a constant state of twirling sadness and joy (I do love my exquisite downs).
Then an unmistakeable realization occurred: I knew it was all over between us. I was quite accepting of this. I saw trivial words we would exchange to say goodbye.
However, I wasn't noticing your entangled energy was unentangling. By the following day I realized the bottom had fallen out. That is, you were completely released. I was slightly depressed, but also happy for you (for us). Still, I wanted to retreat. My meditations were subpar during all this. Still, Kaomea, I was not having emotional swings; I am watching all of it in steady stillness.
I thought of what had just happened, and sometimes caught up on deprived sleep. For days I was in a constant state of twirling sadness and joy (I do love my exquisite downs).
Then an unmistakeable realization occurred: I knew it was all over between us. I was quite accepting of this. I saw trivial words we would exchange to say goodbye.