05-06-2016, 12:00 AM
I have much I want to share, but I have been reculant to do so. Why? Because I thought that it was maybe not interesting for other or because it would be judged as ****... (Seeing here the self censor and self suppressor at work)
So it comes to this start or rather re-start of posting stuff.
I hope it will be worthwhile for the readers...
Here we go
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Today I was at a play ground with my youngest. All ready in the traffic on the way to there, I picked up the sense of other peoples judging and negative projections.
It happened a few times more at the playground. It is unusual for me to pick up these things so clearly as today. I do believe it a result of a 36 days of cleaning my shadow/nagual side with an obsidian mirror. (Powerful stuff !!)
Well back to the story. There came a tipping point where I got more aggressive myself, my normal humble and kind way of being gave way for a more viking barbarian feel.
I started to see leather arm bands on my arms and feel the armor on my body, heh... tough suit I think it is called. I got sort of pissed and checked for people that would be the least in MY way or MY child. It got me centered and alert in the predator way.
A moment I went down the pipe of what would i say to that person, blablabla... saw quickly how inner dialogue start eating my awareness of the present and stopped there. Rested in the simple reasoning that all those people not matter style, titles and body-posture is just meat sacks in racks and that what ever happened I would stive not to let it feed my self importance.
From then on I had a fine and sharp time
So it comes to this start or rather re-start of posting stuff.
I hope it will be worthwhile for the readers...
Here we go
***
Today I was at a play ground with my youngest. All ready in the traffic on the way to there, I picked up the sense of other peoples judging and negative projections.
It happened a few times more at the playground. It is unusual for me to pick up these things so clearly as today. I do believe it a result of a 36 days of cleaning my shadow/nagual side with an obsidian mirror. (Powerful stuff !!)
Well back to the story. There came a tipping point where I got more aggressive myself, my normal humble and kind way of being gave way for a more viking barbarian feel.
I started to see leather arm bands on my arms and feel the armor on my body, heh... tough suit I think it is called. I got sort of pissed and checked for people that would be the least in MY way or MY child. It got me centered and alert in the predator way.
A moment I went down the pipe of what would i say to that person, blablabla... saw quickly how inner dialogue start eating my awareness of the present and stopped there. Rested in the simple reasoning that all those people not matter style, titles and body-posture is just meat sacks in racks and that what ever happened I would stive not to let it feed my self importance.
From then on I had a fine and sharp time