03-18-2016, 12:00 AM
hi there, its been a while since i wrote, i know, forgive me. hope you are all doing well, and i am enjoying the recent posts - keep it up! i would love to see this forum expand ever further, and am honoured to be a part of that. anyways.
soo, i was thinking about autonomy. before i met serloco i had believed that autonomy was an illusion, that everyone must depend on someone/thing else, i saw the world of dependencies - this is the habitual position of humanity, i was looking at it from within the consensus therefore could not see the way out. i realise now that actually, autonomy is possible once you remove yourself from the consensus. going back to the starting point of my journey, was over a year ago when i first messaged serloco, he taught me and helped me to gain the strength to free myself, i dont know if he still does much in the way of helping me now- i think i am on my own. i realised that my autonomy is a process of freedom, i have glimpsed moments where i am completely removed from consensus and have done some amazing things inthese positions, my autonomy is accrued in a similar way that inner silence is accruing for me. altho, with autonomy i am gradually getting 'freer'.
i would like to offer a definition of autonomy as i see it - remaining unmoved by external influences, this is detachment (as billy has talked about )
what does this mean? for me, it is related to what dJ used to talk about-freedom, Serloco i feel has a greater view of this, having seen the third attention. in a more practical sense, i am looking at how i can be autonomous in my life. i cut the things that tie me to the consensus and make me dependent, i see now how to achieve complete independence.
this relates to love, as well, and i would like to talk about that as well. in my world i used to think that you got a good job, a girl, had kids, got married blah blah (pukes), yet as i have developed my ideas i have seen that i have a lover who exists somewhere out there, this lover is the archetype for all the people i have loved and all the people i ever will love, and - like my ally- would enter the people that i was in love with, i feel that this is my true 'soul mate', altho a physical manifestation is nice to see, in this reality. so i do not depend on my lover in this world, i know that who i 'really' love exists beyond space and time, is an abstract thing.
this is good, i will never cling to anyone again and im sure that my next relationship will be amazing. my ally can tap this energy and become my love.
this also helped me to realise why i was upset with the people i have relationship with in the past - they never met my expectations or lived up to this archetype - and that made me feel bad cos i judged people so badly in the past.
soo, i was thinking about autonomy. before i met serloco i had believed that autonomy was an illusion, that everyone must depend on someone/thing else, i saw the world of dependencies - this is the habitual position of humanity, i was looking at it from within the consensus therefore could not see the way out. i realise now that actually, autonomy is possible once you remove yourself from the consensus. going back to the starting point of my journey, was over a year ago when i first messaged serloco, he taught me and helped me to gain the strength to free myself, i dont know if he still does much in the way of helping me now- i think i am on my own. i realised that my autonomy is a process of freedom, i have glimpsed moments where i am completely removed from consensus and have done some amazing things inthese positions, my autonomy is accrued in a similar way that inner silence is accruing for me. altho, with autonomy i am gradually getting 'freer'.
i would like to offer a definition of autonomy as i see it - remaining unmoved by external influences, this is detachment (as billy has talked about )
what does this mean? for me, it is related to what dJ used to talk about-freedom, Serloco i feel has a greater view of this, having seen the third attention. in a more practical sense, i am looking at how i can be autonomous in my life. i cut the things that tie me to the consensus and make me dependent, i see now how to achieve complete independence.
this relates to love, as well, and i would like to talk about that as well. in my world i used to think that you got a good job, a girl, had kids, got married blah blah (pukes), yet as i have developed my ideas i have seen that i have a lover who exists somewhere out there, this lover is the archetype for all the people i have loved and all the people i ever will love, and - like my ally- would enter the people that i was in love with, i feel that this is my true 'soul mate', altho a physical manifestation is nice to see, in this reality. so i do not depend on my lover in this world, i know that who i 'really' love exists beyond space and time, is an abstract thing.
this is good, i will never cling to anyone again and im sure that my next relationship will be amazing. my ally can tap this energy and become my love.
this also helped me to realise why i was upset with the people i have relationship with in the past - they never met my expectations or lived up to this archetype - and that made me feel bad cos i judged people so badly in the past.