03-20-2016, 12:00 AM
spirit showed me, yes, altho you do help.
there are times where i would tell others to tell themselves different things, i used to help without helping in this way - outside of the circle - i only did this when spirit guided me, it was like when they werent being impeccable or they were telling themselves silly things. i remember telling people to leave me alone, i intended away my friends. i love my friends now, see - this is what i learnt from all the times my ap moved thru hallucinogens, that love is there always, it is omnipresent, and you can feel love for a lot of perceptions in the second attention, even tho they dont really relate to anything human, also i have often made the places where i call home to be magical places of power, altho i didnt really kno what i was doing, it is a very powerful act to single out my home from the street, making even my perception of the street change as i get nearer, for example one place i would accentuate the aura colours of everything, making everything look slightly cartoony, or like a postcard of a christmas scene, a lot of the times it would look like it was in the film waking life or a scanner darkly. yes, love is there always, and i met aya during the ayausca ceremony, a being that loved me, and showed me love for music and the second attention, journeys into the unknown, aya showed me trust as well as she loved me i felt trust for her, my skin turned gold in the mirror. love helps me to help, be helped and to learn. as this unfolds i realised the connection with autonomy and love, one thing dJ got right about me was that i was looking for a crutch or someone to feel sorry for me, etc, it was something like that, and as i have started to work with the abstract, i have stopped wastin energy on a lot of things, i am stronger and feel more sure of myself, i have let go of needing to find someone, was silly anyway.
there are times where i would tell others to tell themselves different things, i used to help without helping in this way - outside of the circle - i only did this when spirit guided me, it was like when they werent being impeccable or they were telling themselves silly things. i remember telling people to leave me alone, i intended away my friends. i love my friends now, see - this is what i learnt from all the times my ap moved thru hallucinogens, that love is there always, it is omnipresent, and you can feel love for a lot of perceptions in the second attention, even tho they dont really relate to anything human, also i have often made the places where i call home to be magical places of power, altho i didnt really kno what i was doing, it is a very powerful act to single out my home from the street, making even my perception of the street change as i get nearer, for example one place i would accentuate the aura colours of everything, making everything look slightly cartoony, or like a postcard of a christmas scene, a lot of the times it would look like it was in the film waking life or a scanner darkly. yes, love is there always, and i met aya during the ayausca ceremony, a being that loved me, and showed me love for music and the second attention, journeys into the unknown, aya showed me trust as well as she loved me i felt trust for her, my skin turned gold in the mirror. love helps me to help, be helped and to learn. as this unfolds i realised the connection with autonomy and love, one thing dJ got right about me was that i was looking for a crutch or someone to feel sorry for me, etc, it was something like that, and as i have started to work with the abstract, i have stopped wastin energy on a lot of things, i am stronger and feel more sure of myself, i have let go of needing to find someone, was silly anyway.