03-26-2016, 12:00 AM
yeah, it became fluid, and would seem magical oozing power, i would feel happier as i got closer, those days i was fluid and young, i often wish i could buy that house and live there again, my friend lives near there and i went to visit him recently, i decided to walk down the old street and thought i wonder if the house still looks magical, and you know what it was like i'd never left, as i got nearer i longed to go back to my old box room there, such a quiet peaceful place, i felt the surge of power. there was monks living around there in the past i saw. i saw the house on lsd a couple of times as well, and saw the energy of the place so i guess my perceptions and the fluidity of the area were enhanced by this. i made it into a place of power for me, it was the first time i would read don juan and watch the stars.
yes now i see the world in this way, not just my house, i can set things to be the way i want, i have good experience of 'not yet set til the moment you're living it'. i can make a place of power anywhere i have found.
yes trust was difficult for me and you have shown me to trust the unknown, see i was too nice and used to let people tell me things, i realised that it was my longing for companionship that made me clingy and want to hold people as well. i changed in the way that i use my energy now, i trust when i know to trust and i let spirit guide me, i do not try to hold my friends or let them walk all over me, yes i hide now. it all comes to down to energy i know, so i use it wisely now.
i love this world and i feel i get a boost from the earth, i love all the people i see, i see God in them, and yet there are people i do not trust, but i still love them, and i know how to act around them now. i know that if spirit shows me not to trust them then i try to show them what spirit is showing me, and trust that they will work it out (eventually or quickly). i know that in the past i was blind to what spirit was showing me, sometimes people would show me what spirit was showing them about me and i would not believe it, i know that for me when spirit intervened and my connection became active that i saw that in all those times if id just listened to them/spirit i couldve saved myself a lot of time and pain, yet it is learning right. i guess that was just the way i learnt.
yes now i see the world in this way, not just my house, i can set things to be the way i want, i have good experience of 'not yet set til the moment you're living it'. i can make a place of power anywhere i have found.
yes trust was difficult for me and you have shown me to trust the unknown, see i was too nice and used to let people tell me things, i realised that it was my longing for companionship that made me clingy and want to hold people as well. i changed in the way that i use my energy now, i trust when i know to trust and i let spirit guide me, i do not try to hold my friends or let them walk all over me, yes i hide now. it all comes to down to energy i know, so i use it wisely now.
i love this world and i feel i get a boost from the earth, i love all the people i see, i see God in them, and yet there are people i do not trust, but i still love them, and i know how to act around them now. i know that if spirit shows me not to trust them then i try to show them what spirit is showing me, and trust that they will work it out (eventually or quickly). i know that in the past i was blind to what spirit was showing me, sometimes people would show me what spirit was showing them about me and i would not believe it, i know that for me when spirit intervened and my connection became active that i saw that in all those times if id just listened to them/spirit i couldve saved myself a lot of time and pain, yet it is learning right. i guess that was just the way i learnt.