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[serloco]

when I first learned controlled folly it was like entering into a alternate reality, a parallel dimension. The world appeared to be the same world and yet my judgement, my internal awareness of reality, was an echo that was manifesting, outward, the world around me. Everything I thought about the people and the objects manifested in real time. In a way it broke my heart because reality was a sham. Everything was merely an illusion, or appeared to be. All it took was a different perspective in order to alter the events and the flow, the roles of the people and objects of the dream. Now I do not say dream as normal people use the term. I use it to define reality itself, the 1st attention. One realizes quickly upon entering the 2nd attention that their view of habitual reality changes quickly. The habitual 1st attention can take on the values of the 2nd attention positions you discover. Which is to say that the new awareness of the world becomes cohesive and the 1st attention shifts. My 1st attention is often like a dream for me. Since I discovered many things in the 2nd attention and gained cohesion on them they became my 1st attention. That is not to say I can not free my awareness and perceive the world in a normal fashion, because I can. I am saying that things like telepathy and inorganic awareness I choose to make active in my daily habitual awareness. I stopped seeing people as I knew them to be once I discovered that it was my own awareness manifesting/moving them. My world is largly set with IOB roles now, as all i have to do is voice my intent to change them. I have seen my own parents become IOB's, clones, enemies, and friends that can manifest objects for me. As well as even beings that shift into other people. Seeing reality in so many different positions, even the normal relaity such as my parents has had a drastic effect on my view of reality. I can no longer go home and have it be the same as it used to be. I have tried to forget and often get close, just like Genero, but in the end the ally always shows me what i know.