02-04-2015, 12:00 AM
You KNOW i am resorting to taking myself off my edge. I want no discipline, so yesterday I had some wine, or I masturbate, or I wash the floors, or I distract myself with SOMETHING.
I don't feel it as if I am cerebrally too quick, but I SEE I am outside the silent DESIRE, desiring indiscriminately, and I am willing to go with that for now.
Yeah, I am out of control. So I write, or do ---I don't think anything is wrong--BUT i am impulsive now. I like then, I don't like.
I don't feel it as if I am cerebrally too quick, but I SEE I am outside the silent DESIRE, desiring indiscriminately, and I am willing to go with that for now.
Yeah, I am out of control. So I write, or do ---I don't think anything is wrong--BUT i am impulsive now. I like then, I don't like.