02-05-2015, 12:00 AM
Trust my actions and like myself, huh? I'm a fucking twerp. I had to break into an office to steal tests to graduate from college and I'm proud of that. I was going to tell you a long list but what does it really matter anyways?
I DO like myself, especially when I can attain to fantastical mind-generated pornography of perversion and being little and belittler. Despite conventional wisdom to the contrary, like thinking I did not have to work from age fifty on, I DO like myself. I am riding natural highs--I CAN'T COME DOWN (not that I would want to!)-- and I feel compelled to say I am without redemption, because even the fucking devil parted ways with me.
Oh I'm sure there are a list of GOOD things too---what for? Good for who? I read that quote and SAW unadulterared truth about the things I need to fix. I'll fix them SEE SEE. I SEE that I should become crazier than I am. It isn't like getting something off my chest here... it is who I am. I LIKE it too, and I want no restraints.
When I took calls from sisters reminding me of a summer lunch they will take me to, I thought, I want to go alright, but I am going to tell them I won't sit with them. The prospect of sitting with stupid unaware (DREAMING) people is loathesome to me. I like my wife and daughter, and can tolerate a dying Russian who worked for me long ago. I don't like people.
The universe is a giant ****. I like CUNTS a lot. I don't even want to be consistent anymore; i can contradict myself. I AM SHARP. When I go out I watch how I can move women now. Have not done that consistently in over thirty years.
I am not being Being hard on myself now, am I?
BUT, you were EXACTLY right---you ALWAYS are!
I DO like myself, especially when I can attain to fantastical mind-generated pornography of perversion and being little and belittler. Despite conventional wisdom to the contrary, like thinking I did not have to work from age fifty on, I DO like myself. I am riding natural highs--I CAN'T COME DOWN (not that I would want to!)-- and I feel compelled to say I am without redemption, because even the fucking devil parted ways with me.
Oh I'm sure there are a list of GOOD things too---what for? Good for who? I read that quote and SAW unadulterared truth about the things I need to fix. I'll fix them SEE SEE. I SEE that I should become crazier than I am. It isn't like getting something off my chest here... it is who I am. I LIKE it too, and I want no restraints.
When I took calls from sisters reminding me of a summer lunch they will take me to, I thought, I want to go alright, but I am going to tell them I won't sit with them. The prospect of sitting with stupid unaware (DREAMING) people is loathesome to me. I like my wife and daughter, and can tolerate a dying Russian who worked for me long ago. I don't like people.
The universe is a giant ****. I like CUNTS a lot. I don't even want to be consistent anymore; i can contradict myself. I AM SHARP. When I go out I watch how I can move women now. Have not done that consistently in over thirty years.
I am not being Being hard on myself now, am I?
BUT, you were EXACTLY right---you ALWAYS are!