02-08-2015, 12:01 AM
I am wondering about a sense of becoming lost, where laziness about previous knowledge is okay. I mean lost, as in no direction (excepting sense of free). I mean lost, while at the same time reduced essentially to nothing else but the current--as in lazy such as by more and more disregard.
This has that quality of living FOR the moment, and a little less so 'in the moment.' (typically viewed unfavorably in psycho-babble.)
Awareness is high enough, but maybe I don't give a *** about anything, unless until that moment I decide so. This brings more unpredictable behavior, which for me can lead to the outlandish.
SO, I deal with this unleashed beast that is my self and begin a process of ultimate removal from a fixed person; most detachment practices to this point were child's play.
When I draw to an interest it is not counterproductive-- if I don't draw to one it is not counterproductive.
Read ALL of underlined as a sentence* Is that pretty much it? I perfect PLAY.
This has that quality of living FOR the moment, and a little less so 'in the moment.' (typically viewed unfavorably in psycho-babble.)
Awareness is high enough, but maybe I don't give a *** about anything, unless until that moment I decide so. This brings more unpredictable behavior, which for me can lead to the outlandish.
SO, I deal with this unleashed beast that is my self and begin a process of ultimate removal from a fixed person; most detachment practices to this point were child's play.
When I draw to an interest it is not counterproductive-- if I don't draw to one it is not counterproductive.
Read ALL of underlined as a sentence* Is that pretty much it? I perfect PLAY.