01-27-2016, 12:01 AM
billy and grace..
Indifference discovered at the base of my isolation not only needs to be actualized by 'telling you' (as example), but evermore needs to be underscored as LOVINGLY low and base from my perspective. Thus, all the self-workings are knowingly, fondly derived from what is abject and contemptible. {MYSELF}
No doubt about it, in my case anyways, being despicably authentic is a chosen existential celebration; wherefore, all else falls into orderly line behind.
That said, I am NOT responsive to the world, and owe nothing.
Decidedly, there is only a sense of incompleteness when unable to move fluidly in the vast emptiness I've cultivated. I can easily live without positive reinforcement from the world.
I would suffer greatly if I could not disappear and become claimed as worthless billy in the purity of MY simple awareness.
I do control the world, but not because I exert energy. I control the world because I am intimate with energy. Energy (the universe) is way more puny than myself.
I reread this thread, "untitled;" It was written before its time really, and is often very refelective of my world now.
Before serloco, I had center in emptiness already; but serloco showed me what it meant to exercise decisionally within that void.
Synchronicity abounds. Cured all bodily illnesses. Fixed all relational matters. Made my immediate family wholesome. Re-engaged my vocation. Am sexually fun and dynamic. Everything worldly is easy, and shaped auspiciously. Many, many little miracles.
What would threateningly lurk as painful life experience to others, is what makes me most spiritually graced. I welcome that which can take me down into the merciful, pleasurable darkness. PEACE.
ALL THIS {manifestation}, is remarkable to even billy.
Indifference discovered at the base of my isolation not only needs to be actualized by 'telling you' (as example), but evermore needs to be underscored as LOVINGLY low and base from my perspective. Thus, all the self-workings are knowingly, fondly derived from what is abject and contemptible. {MYSELF}
No doubt about it, in my case anyways, being despicably authentic is a chosen existential celebration; wherefore, all else falls into orderly line behind.
That said, I am NOT responsive to the world, and owe nothing.
Decidedly, there is only a sense of incompleteness when unable to move fluidly in the vast emptiness I've cultivated. I can easily live without positive reinforcement from the world.
I would suffer greatly if I could not disappear and become claimed as worthless billy in the purity of MY simple awareness.
I do control the world, but not because I exert energy. I control the world because I am intimate with energy. Energy (the universe) is way more puny than myself.
I reread this thread, "untitled;" It was written before its time really, and is often very refelective of my world now.
Before serloco, I had center in emptiness already; but serloco showed me what it meant to exercise decisionally within that void.
Synchronicity abounds. Cured all bodily illnesses. Fixed all relational matters. Made my immediate family wholesome. Re-engaged my vocation. Am sexually fun and dynamic. Everything worldly is easy, and shaped auspiciously. Many, many little miracles.
What would threateningly lurk as painful life experience to others, is what makes me most spiritually graced. I welcome that which can take me down into the merciful, pleasurable darkness. PEACE.
ALL THIS {manifestation}, is remarkable to even billy.