01-28-2016, 12:01 AM
I am now writing for sanity (smh). Awareness is painfully keen, and I am sexually charged. I wish I could cry (do something) for relief (smile). My 'time' is not structured with more consuming activity until spring, and energy steadily overdoses me.
Having to live with the knowledge of one's emptiness makes the existential experience very distinct from regular conditional living. It is of a different syntax. The markers that guide one in conventional activity are absent. To a large extent, I am to make up 'rules' by the moment in a flow.
Detachment is no longer a matter of material adjustment, it is how I am to exist decisionally. I am sure there are more ways than I have laid out to have the syntax I allude to. serloco, do you know anything about the pain of this syntax? LOL!!
more later..
Having to live with the knowledge of one's emptiness makes the existential experience very distinct from regular conditional living. It is of a different syntax. The markers that guide one in conventional activity are absent. To a large extent, I am to make up 'rules' by the moment in a flow.
Detachment is no longer a matter of material adjustment, it is how I am to exist decisionally. I am sure there are more ways than I have laid out to have the syntax I allude to. serloco, do you know anything about the pain of this syntax? LOL!!
more later..