02-11-2017, 12:02 AM
Serloco,
Before I write anything too amazing or insightful... I wanted to discuss something with you. Power comes from the ability to delete the self. There's an emptiness. Those with power have been repeatedly reminded they are alone in the world. They are so alone they soon realize no matter their actions they will never feel closeness. They wind up giving up entirely. Hope, when they discover it, brings them back to life. The potential for closeness is dangerous. For a powerful person, to believe they can possess love changes their world. Should that be stripped away they are then reduced to emptiness once again. Without hope. It's great for power, but it's hopeless for finding a reason to engage others. People enjoy elitism when it's impersonal. Anything else and it makes powerful people targets. Many pursue power mistakenly thinking it will save them (taking them past the eagle). What they don't realize is only the most lost enter power. A grand goal until a person learns of the requirement to hold power: a squeaky clean vessel, one void of love, hope, and dreams. If there is no self then love, hope, and dreams have no home to reside. Power is only held by those who achieve such a fate. Sometimes they manage to move closer to humane exchanges, but sooner or later they realize why it's dangerous to embrace hope. They ultimately retreat back into the folds where the only people who could possibly find them would have no desire to find them. It's a pitiful existence.
With this cheery thought in mind, I'm sharing this because you should know you're not missing out on anything. You should never choose to enter power. Only if circumstances force you into power should you accept it. No one tells you how to apply power either. You just pick how and make up your own rules. Given the lack of self, there's no real point to using power so the neat things most envision achieving with power become irrelevant.
My point is you should be made aware of the risks and to be told it's not what many have been lead to believe. Those who do make connections do it in hopes of helping others find the freedom they themselves lack. It's actually a cruel joke. Please don't feel like you require power to live a fulfilling life. Life is only fulfilling when you live outside of power, not inside it. On the other hand, if you're forced into power I think it's nice to have another to share in that experience. Having to discover it alone only adds acid to the wound. It doesn't really make a difference, it just makes it so much more difficult to find your way out.
You strike me as the type who will be forced into power, but I hope youll be bumped out once you arrive. You wouldn't enjoy it, but you'll know its taste and will have a greater command of it even after you exit (if you decide to exit).
I have a lot respect for what you've already endured. I have even greater respect for you now. You've chosen happiness and found it. I've been wishing on shooting stars and birthday candles since my teens for what you found. I would trade every ability I have for the opportunity you have now. If I can offer you any advice, appreciate every single moment with her. Most don't realize what they have until it's gone. Realize what you have while you have it.
Before I write anything too amazing or insightful... I wanted to discuss something with you. Power comes from the ability to delete the self. There's an emptiness. Those with power have been repeatedly reminded they are alone in the world. They are so alone they soon realize no matter their actions they will never feel closeness. They wind up giving up entirely. Hope, when they discover it, brings them back to life. The potential for closeness is dangerous. For a powerful person, to believe they can possess love changes their world. Should that be stripped away they are then reduced to emptiness once again. Without hope. It's great for power, but it's hopeless for finding a reason to engage others. People enjoy elitism when it's impersonal. Anything else and it makes powerful people targets. Many pursue power mistakenly thinking it will save them (taking them past the eagle). What they don't realize is only the most lost enter power. A grand goal until a person learns of the requirement to hold power: a squeaky clean vessel, one void of love, hope, and dreams. If there is no self then love, hope, and dreams have no home to reside. Power is only held by those who achieve such a fate. Sometimes they manage to move closer to humane exchanges, but sooner or later they realize why it's dangerous to embrace hope. They ultimately retreat back into the folds where the only people who could possibly find them would have no desire to find them. It's a pitiful existence.
With this cheery thought in mind, I'm sharing this because you should know you're not missing out on anything. You should never choose to enter power. Only if circumstances force you into power should you accept it. No one tells you how to apply power either. You just pick how and make up your own rules. Given the lack of self, there's no real point to using power so the neat things most envision achieving with power become irrelevant.
My point is you should be made aware of the risks and to be told it's not what many have been lead to believe. Those who do make connections do it in hopes of helping others find the freedom they themselves lack. It's actually a cruel joke. Please don't feel like you require power to live a fulfilling life. Life is only fulfilling when you live outside of power, not inside it. On the other hand, if you're forced into power I think it's nice to have another to share in that experience. Having to discover it alone only adds acid to the wound. It doesn't really make a difference, it just makes it so much more difficult to find your way out.
You strike me as the type who will be forced into power, but I hope youll be bumped out once you arrive. You wouldn't enjoy it, but you'll know its taste and will have a greater command of it even after you exit (if you decide to exit).
I have a lot respect for what you've already endured. I have even greater respect for you now. You've chosen happiness and found it. I've been wishing on shooting stars and birthday candles since my teens for what you found. I would trade every ability I have for the opportunity you have now. If I can offer you any advice, appreciate every single moment with her. Most don't realize what they have until it's gone. Realize what you have while you have it.