02-28-2017, 12:04 AM
I believe that you wouldn't turn my back on me. I saw how you dealt with Billy after he betrayed you. I've never been that flavor of bad. I'm more abrasive and defiant, very rarely malicious. That earned my trust. Also, you were very forgiving toward me. Even after I pushed you to the edge. You might be surprised by how many don't forgive after that. The ones who have forgiven me have become very close friends.
It's not that I don't believe in evil, it's that I see it as a point on a spectrum. There is evil in the the world, but often it isn't an individual. Evil is found within behavior. What I mean is a person is unlikely to be evil, instead a person commits acts of evil. Part of it is I dislike the word evil. I prefer to call evil behavior, poor choices. Evil reminds me of religion and demons.
Question, instead of seeing your service as a fight against evil, have you considered seeing it as supporting humanity? When I go to work, I don't ask myself what BS I'll have to deal with today. I ask myself who am I going to help today. I'm less interested in fighting and more interested in the joy aspects, hence I see things slightly different even if we're essentially doing the same thing.
As I think more on this, I wonder if I frame my intent in hopes of manifesting supportive behavior due to my tendency to f.uck s.hit up in dreaming. I'm awful in dreams. I constantly catch myself in sketchy scenarios. Although most times I agree with my double once I learn all the details, but when my consciousness initially arrives, and I have no background on why I'm in a chaotic situation, I'm always temporarily disoriented. My dreams generally have begun with this exchange with myself, "Why am I sucking souls and where did all these bodies come from?! What the he.ll did I do?! Oh, these people were killing children? Why didn't you say so? You may continue eating souls. Let me help you grab a second serving."
On the other hand, you may be seeing yourself as fighting evil if you're approaching it from a state of holiness or goodness. Hmmm. It sounds like we're meeting at the same place, but leaving from opposite points. Lol. I like having friends in high places
I agree with what you said. It's easier to fight evil if you've been evil. It's why ex criminals are experts at catching other criminals. We are capable of thinking as they do.
It's not that I don't believe in evil, it's that I see it as a point on a spectrum. There is evil in the the world, but often it isn't an individual. Evil is found within behavior. What I mean is a person is unlikely to be evil, instead a person commits acts of evil. Part of it is I dislike the word evil. I prefer to call evil behavior, poor choices. Evil reminds me of religion and demons.
Question, instead of seeing your service as a fight against evil, have you considered seeing it as supporting humanity? When I go to work, I don't ask myself what BS I'll have to deal with today. I ask myself who am I going to help today. I'm less interested in fighting and more interested in the joy aspects, hence I see things slightly different even if we're essentially doing the same thing.
As I think more on this, I wonder if I frame my intent in hopes of manifesting supportive behavior due to my tendency to f.uck s.hit up in dreaming. I'm awful in dreams. I constantly catch myself in sketchy scenarios. Although most times I agree with my double once I learn all the details, but when my consciousness initially arrives, and I have no background on why I'm in a chaotic situation, I'm always temporarily disoriented. My dreams generally have begun with this exchange with myself, "Why am I sucking souls and where did all these bodies come from?! What the he.ll did I do?! Oh, these people were killing children? Why didn't you say so? You may continue eating souls. Let me help you grab a second serving."
On the other hand, you may be seeing yourself as fighting evil if you're approaching it from a state of holiness or goodness. Hmmm. It sounds like we're meeting at the same place, but leaving from opposite points. Lol. I like having friends in high places
I agree with what you said. It's easier to fight evil if you've been evil. It's why ex criminals are experts at catching other criminals. We are capable of thinking as they do.