Time

[serloco]

When I first started on the path of sorcery I read about intent and will from Carlos' book. I badly wanted to learn everything i could on the subject and so i followed dj's advice and simply intended to see the source of existence. I set my intent and did my best to abandon myself to it. About two weeks later i was rewarded greatly. I had ordered online some different power plants to aid my in my journies and so ingested some amanita muscaria, which is called the soma of the gods. It is reported to give warriors great power and visions of God. So that day I took some and freaked out on it. I got really scared as reality started blacking out on me and so i went to a friends house in the city i was in. Noone was home and so i let myself in. I ended up crawling up into their attic when i blacked out comepltely. I woke up in a dark empty void with no body. I scanned around me and saw many points of dull lignt behind me, and pass around me to form one light. This light was directly in front of me. As I watched it the light came closer to me, or i came closer to the light, it was difficult to tell which. As it approached I hesitated for a second fearing it, but a voice spoke in my mind saying "It is what you want", and so i scanned it with my energy body and felt that it was beautiful. My energy body then jumped into the light on its own accord. I then felt the most intense experience of my life as i exploded into infinity. I became aware that time, or life, had created every single psosible reality, and at the saem time every reality had failed and died. Everything in the world had succeeded and at the same time failed. Everything had lived completely to its fullness, and had also died at the same time. I saw that all these realities are being created right now, as i am typing, and have already been created since time began. I saw that this death collects us, and every being in existence and brings us together at the end, to reunite with the source. It brings every point in time to the same place at the same time. A multi-singularity. All from one, and all to one. I saw that we have the power to will any of these existences to us at any given moment, right now. And it is all happening right now. These explosions would hit me and fill me with this complete awareness, and then leave me bodyless again in the void, untill the next light slammed into me again. And that is exactly what they were doing, slamming into me. Like the rolling force of the Eagle. Every time i would explode with awareness, then it would be gone again. over and over until i finally came to in the attic again. Sitting in the dark and hovering between this awareness i realized i needed to get out of the attic, and so i opened the door to leave. As i was leaving the upstairs i found my two friends in the house. They were surprised to see me and asked where i had come from. I couldn't answer them because my awareness was still being slammed by this force, and so i walked outside. Unable to get a hold of reality i was hovering between the force and the people. They started beating me. With every hit i would come to, and then fade away again to the light. After awhile i realized that this light had given me great power of will, and with it need not be beaten any longer, and so i decided that the beating would end. When i made that realization the people flew back from me as if i had struck them. They fell back and went into their house again. I learned much more later about this force of life and death that i call the source, but for now i think that will suffice.