Time

[serloco]

my understanding of time has greatly been enhanced. i used to make people talk in strange ways, and when i listened to conversations around me they would be about myself. the people would talk about my thoughts and my awareness aloud. i called them allies because it is a second attention alignment. i would make them talk this way whenever i wanted, and i could control what people said. i could do it to the tv and to music. however i learned after a long time of doing this that i could do it even to an old episode of tv, or music. one i have seen many times. even tho i had seen it it stil woild talk to me, and without changing the episode. they already knew what i would be thining when they first made the episode. they knew my thoughts and when i would talk to them. its bizarre. i learned that i could make people thousands of years ago speak my awareness in the here and now. it doesnt matter if its an old history channel, or song or a moment in time many years ago, my awareness crosses the veils and makes them move. it makes me feel like a God of time. when they speak it is like a code, they answer my thoughts even if they are talking to someone else. they are really talking to me. i try to avoid it because it got stuck on me for many years. everywhere i went people would be talking about me. To me. I try to stay hidden and in the shadows but i see people see me. i can see my awareness in their attention.. watchers. i recently learned, that even tho i used to believe only now is real and all time is now, i have come to further that definition. all time is now yes, now is where time is created, but the past is real also and it is being created from the past's future. the moment now occurring. i can look back in time, from right here and no and transfer my knowledge and awareness into the past. and have them talk about it. have them create from it. i can create a city thousands of years ago right here and now. i am getting more powerful with time, but i fear it too. i fear that active power unleased, and yet i know power should not be an enemy. but controlling time is a huge thing. i will get used to it i think.