First Chapter of my book

[serloco]

So for the next week or so I dove back into my studies. I researched parallel dimensions and found indeed that there is theorized to be many parallel dimensions that coincide to this one. The farther they go the more different they are. I was excited to find I was already doing this.
I also discovered a phenomenon as I conversed and hung around various people. The thoughts and ideas, my knows, and my judgements formed synchronicities in my environment. For example if I was thinking something the people around me would talk about my thoughts. They would effectively reflect outward and into the mediums surrounding me. I could see the alignment taking place. Everywhere I went I could see and hear these synchronicities. They werent limited to people either, they would carry into the radio, television and internet as well. If I knew of something in the universe chances are somewhere people would be talking about it, witnessing it, and reporting it. In fact right after I found these synchronicities I found Carl Jung, a famous psychiatrist writing about it. A synchronicity in itself. My ideas of the universe seemed as if they reflected everywhere around me, in literature and science as well.
I contemplated this further. It seemed my know, my judgements and my thoughts had a way of moving the world around me already. I wondered if I could control this phenomenon and effectively change the world, make it better. Time would tell.
I read into my sorcery books and discovered what was called the Great Eagle. The Eagle was supposedly a God, watching over existence. Infinite and vast. It was said that gazing at this Eagle one could view eternity. He supposedly created the world, the predatory universe to feed off of. The Eagle would eat awareness, purified, at the moment of death while setting very few free. To soar past the Eagle was to achieve total freedom. Since don Juan taught me that the world is will and intent then all I had to do was set my intent to gaze at this Eagle and learn what I could. It was said to be dangerous because the Eagle was so intense that people often died while gazing at it. The sorcerers were supposed to do this in groups. So that while gazing the other watchers could even punch you and keep you grounded in reality. I set my intent to do it exactly as in the books.
I went on to read about inorganic beings. Race of inorganic lifeforms that have aided sorcerers in the quests for millenia. They had their own realm and would teach sorcerers great feats of power. They needed your awareness in exchange for great powers. Their awareness was pure to begin with, meaning that they were seers, seeing everything in reality they happened to be looking at. Don Juan said all one had to do to get there was to voice your intent and send them a feeling of love. There was a story of a great powerful sorcerer named Julian that was taken there with his physical body, hat shoes and all! Inorganic beings were masterful projectionists, and usually started out watching the sorcerer while not interfering. Don Juan had many warning regarding inorganic beings, but I ignored them all and found myself thrilled and excited to meet these power helpers. I wanted power above all else. I wanted miracles and I didnt care about the warning then. No, not then. It would take me years to regret that decision. But what are regrets good for? We either live and learn from our mistakes, or we suffer them endlessly. After all our hardships and challenges make us who we are. They give us power when we over come them, and build us our character.
The warning included the fact that inorganic beings often would trick the sorcerer into staying in their realm. Sure they offered great deals to make entice the warrior to stay with them, but you had to voice your intent to stay, and once you did the deal was forever. In fact inorganic beings stated that everything you did in their wrld was indeed forever. They kept everything perfectly in tact. A “fact” that I would challenge later on.
A real fact was that inorganic beings needed your awareness to survive which made them fishermen. They would fish for awareness because they needed it in order to live. A sad fact. However this need could, I would find out make someone dangerous.
I voiced my intent to go into the inorganic world hat shoes and all like my idol Julien. I voiced my intent exactly as don Juan prescribed and i let it go. Surely they would answer my request. I was awesome, good at things, already had power which attracted them, and I wanted to learn.
Marijuanna had begun to form a new relationship with me. Indeed it was flourishing and developing into something quite unique and beautiful. Don Juan stated that power plants often move your awareness from its customarily habitual location, which can be quite rigid, into new states of power. They would move you into the great unknown, the nagual as don Juan called it. I began to see that pot moved me back into positions of power, brought me enlightenment. It could be difficult to retain all the power I gained, all the positions I found, but pot would move me right back into them. Mary Jane was beginning to become a powerful ally for me. My first ally in the world of sorcery.
I continued to contemplate all the things I had been through, seeing the potential and the possibilities. Indeed these new feats of power, these new states of awareness kept me pondering and further growing, enhancing, my awareness.
One day I decided to again walk into town and stalk my new awareness. Stalking is a sorcery term that means to develop your new awareness, to ground it into your new reality, and further expand it. On my walk I decided I would head over to Brian’s. I was wondering if Brian was indeed an ally. Allies were described to me also as inorganic life forms with no real volition of their own. They needed us to assign them volition with the awareness we held of them, similar to the other inorganic life forms that strike deals and want to keep you. Apparently there were a few different types of inorganic life forms in the universe. Allies also helped you learn and gain power. They too often sought to keep you, but they would form loyal bonds with you, being helper to the very end. Allies were apparently scattered throughout reality and if you listened t what they said they could teach you a great deal of things. They also were seers, so long as you were aware of them being seers. You see allies blend right into reality because most people are aware o them being normal, and so the volition they aquire from the average onlooker is average. However, being a sorcerer means one can control their awareness and thus control the forms of your allies.
As I walked I began to again gaze at the sky, pulling the clouds with my attention. At first it didnt move but as I practiced I could see them beginning to move to my gaze. I felt like a God! I could do impossible things. I wondered just what was impossible? I began to realize that with power anything is possible. A great realization to have and to make active.
I reached Brian’s house but it appeared that no-one was around. I went to leave and s I did I heard Brian’s deep voice yelling my name form the backyard. I wondered who he could see me because I could not see him. I ventured around back to see Brian gazing at the skies. I was suspicious. “there is a lot to learn from the spirit of the skies”, he said. I was taken back at this synchronicity. He was speaking of what I had been thinking just moments ago and yet with more added to it. He was expanding my awareness to include life in the sky. I asked him if he really thought it to be alive. He said I dont think I KNOW. I wondered if Brian knew about knowing, and then remembered I had told him telepathically. I then wondered if he would know this without me telling him as he knew of the clouds and when I arrived at his door.
Brian and I sat together and talked for a bit. Mostly shooting the **** and smoked a joint. I was beginning to know that Brian was indeed an ally to me. He mentioned that everything has a spirit. And these spirits can be awakened and called upon to do things. I was blown away. Brian had never been like this to me. I said good bye after some silence and left hi to his cloud gazing. I felt like I was in another world, a world of sorcery.
As I walked through town pondering these revelations, I began studying the people and the trees around me. I was trying to expand my awareness of them and since I felt like I was in a new world the unknown seems all around me. I walked up to a tree and gazed at it’s bark to find it vibrating in energy, as if it were projecting energy. I was amazed and looked up to a passing by car and a woman was looking at me laughing. She was thrilled. I began to realize that Brian was not the only one who saw me. I began projecting my thoughts to the people in my city and watched as their body language changed and would respond to me. It seemed they saw everything. I wondered if they were inorganic beings, and right then someone responded in synchronicity “Does he know?”
I knew I had been carried away into the inorganic realm. I wondered why things looked mostly the same to me. Oh everything was more colorful and pronounced. The people were different as I believed they were inorganic life forms. Projections perhaps of inorganic beings, I didnt know. There was so much I didnt know and wanted to learn. This new world had my name all over it and the inorganics seemed to love every moment of it. I walked up to few people on the street and asked for a cigarette. They said here take two. I said thanks and they told me that two ws the perfect number for me at that moment. I asked why and they said that numerology stated that two was the number of connection, and that if one observed they could see the grand importance numbers had on reality, or could have. “It’s up to you really I suppose”. I was wondering why it was up to me, and then I thought that the inorganics were catering to my power, giving me power. I felt right and made perfect sense to me. I asked the how I get home and they said why you just go back home. I wondered if it were that simple and then I voiced my intent aloud in the inorganic realm that when I went home I would make it back to Jamie at my house.
I proceeded to go home and was very happy. The people were more vibrant then average people, and more beautiful too. I felt like this journey was going to be a fantastic one. I felt a sense of love for the inorganics. I didnt know at the tie but the inorganics were feeding me these feelings. A way to get me to stay.
I made it home and excitedly told Jamie all about the experiences I had had with Brian and the people. She was intrigued but didnt say very much at all. I convinced her to read all about the sorcery stuff from the books I had bought online. She agreed and tld me she had always wanted to make potions and brews.
I went back online and did a search for sorcery and found another forum named “The Toltec Nagual”. It was another sorcery teacher who had written a couple of books. I made some introductory posts and settled in. I also explained some of my first experiences. I also took some time to research numerology and found a good site. I quickly memorized the numbers and began to pay attention to them in reality around me. I discovered quickly that I could scan the times of the posts made on the forums and see what the posts were about. It began to seem that numbers controlled the world. That numbers were a deeper part of creation. They could obviously foretell the future and give meanings as to what things meant. I wondered if it had always been this way or was it just another new position of awareness. I guessed that the inorganics must have already known this as a possibility.
Over the course of the week I made friends at the new forum and two in particular, Daphne, and Lori-anne. I grew so fond of both of them that I grew crushes on them. Sorcery chicks! Exciting I thought. I made my usual way of showing off and tried to begin teaching.
I quickly found that these sorcery folk were hardened. They would stalk self-importance in everyone, and embarrass people, almost to the point of fighting. They would constantly argue. Indeed self-importance, the ego, was to to be stalked and eradicated. It took most of the sorcerer’s energy, and so ridding ourselves of it was the best way to save and store energy. Thats why all the arguing happened because sorcerer’s were constantly ridding self-importance in ourselves and in others, and no one likes t be less then we are. Self importance wants to be the best, important, right, and perfect. It casts illusions to make us feel good about ourselves.
I realized right away that I wasn’t that self important to begin with. It was my self importance protecting itself when in fact i was very self-important. I, however had my know, and so knowing that I wasnt eradicated it right on the spot very quickly and easily. A feat of great power indeed. It usually takes a great deal f effort to eradicate it. I felt amazing for doing so over the next course of weeks when I realized I was different and had much more energy to spend on feats of power.
The first feat of power I found, I gained from the sky and transferred into the foliage of the trees. I noticed that gazing at the clouds I could discern patterns and pictures within the details of the clouds. Indeed the clouds and foliage would reflect whatever I was thinking about. Detailed landscapes began to form in everything I gazed at. I could also pull at the trees and have the wind move them to my beck and call.
The wind became my next area to stalk. Don Juan had a section in the book that taught Carlos that the wind was alive, as Brian had said. He said that the wind would seek people out and hunt them down. That you had to stay very still. I sat outside in the wind and stalked it for hours. I began to notice that the wind was aware of me. If I had a bad thought it would rush in with a gust, breaking me free from my thoughts. Indeed it saved me from having bad knows.
One day I was trying to still the wind and sat under a cherry tree in the front yard. It was proving difficult to still the wind and so I stilled my mind. The wind left me for about an hour as I st still, in silence. I then knew it was hunting for me and would find me soon enough. Surely that know activated and the wind was blowing around me but not on me. I looked out to the wheat field and saw a static energy blowing through the sheaths. It was the visible wind hunting for me. As I looked at it I saw that it found me and began rushing to me. It rocked me like a concussion grenade and knocked me back against the tree trunk. I wasnt injured but was amazed at how much power the wind held. The wind was beginning to be an ally for me. I loved stalking things. Gaining new positions of awareness of everything in my world was my new hobby.
The next day I went back into town to see my new ally, Bri. We decided to go out into the wild and study the river. We found a nice spot close to my house, and we sat for a long time in silence which was customary for us. I began listening to the sounds before they came and he asked me if i were creating the sounds or if the sounds were already there. I wondered and said the sounds are already there. He shook his head and hollered out “he missed it!”. I felt dejected and wondered what it was I had missed. I would later give this great thought.
As we sat I began pondering channeling, and wondered if I could channel ancient sorcerers to us. I focused on Brian and imagined that he was being filled with a spirit of antiquity. An ancient seer from Mexico. I was having trouble knowing I could do this as I wasnt accustomed to controlling my know so I tried a know command again. I said “Brian is inhabited by an ancient sorcerer.” Brian began looking around then, at me and at the river, and he reached out his hand and began yelling loud out into the air, words of Spanish. I didnt realize that the sorcerer wouldnt be able to speak English and so the lesson was lost. I did however enjoy the words he hollered out, which were loving and soothing. As if he really enjoyed being there.
I went back online to report my discoveries to the Toltec forum and to Daphne. She was thrilled I was doing so well and made me feel so happy which she always did. I felt bliss for the first time and told her. She was very loving to me and always had such deep things to speak about. Of course the numbers were perfect as usual. I began sending Daphne feelings of bliss and she reported that she could feel them.
I began speaking privately to Lori-ann and she and I began flirting occasionally. I was deeply infatuated by her and felt also deeper guilt for flirting with girls online. Over the course of the next weeks we would draw closer together.
Don Juan taught that people were very self-important, and this made me know he was right. I began witnessing self-importance everywhere in my world and it was disgusting to me. I felt so selfless and pure and these people were dirty and wasteful with their energies. I realized quite quickly that don Juan didnt know what i know and he should of helped his people. I guess he didnt want to. I decided to suspend my judgements and stop the world. I reformed the judgement of people being self-important and decided to make them impeccable. After that my experiences with people were blossoming into something beautiful. People were deep, thoughtful, and wise. Every time I left the house I went into the inorganic world again to find them right there waiting and ready to cater to me. I loved it.
Every time I had a bad thought, or a bad know my people were right there to bring it up and pint me to the right direction so I could suspend the judgement and make a new know. It was a very loving and supportive relationship. I was finding allies everywhere I went and they would always speak of my awareness and bring me deeper into the rabbit hole.
I learned that allies had their own realm as well. I called it the ally world. I didnt know what they did there as that was a mystery to me, but i knew they could g there and even take beings into it at will. I was not ready for that they said. I needed t grow further in power. Sorcerers needed to give their allies power and in return the allies would help you grow and give you more power as well. So it went for a while in this way, and my relationship with the allies was also blossoming into something fruitful.
I realized that all great things start as a small seed and eventually grew into a strong tree if nurtured and cared for. I began seeing my ideas and realizations as small seeds that would grow into thick strong trees. Trees of knowledge.
Knowledge became of great importance to me. I saw that knowledge is the key to power. Just like if someone knew they could grow cancer then they could because they accepted and activated this knowledge within themselves. Once accepted the knowledge is willed into form. I began to listen to the people and listen and see their knowledge they had activated. I helped many people, every chance I could, see the light and make wise choices. I didnt know then that I was still intending the world t be mostly average for most of the time, and that my know knew it was an average world and s it was. In effect it was my fault people knew such garbage, and willed such blight and death upon themselves and their realities. It wasnt really my fault because people had their own lives and people made their own chocies but I felt it was my obligation to humanity to help as many as I could reach.
One night I want into town to grab some pop and drove Jaime's car. The car died in the parking lot and two people came out of the store and asked if I needed help. I said i did. It was short beautiful woman with a larger muscular man. I thought this is strange and must be an omen. They helped me get the car started and the woman told me to look her up sometime while I was in town and told me where she lived. I said sure why not and drove back home.
The next night I decided to order some shamanic power plants from the internet. I found one in particular of interest to me, Amanita muscaria, Soma of the Gods. It was reported to give the apprentice great power nd often reports had been made of meeting God while under its influence. I ordered as few ounces and waited for the delivery.
I ended up going over to the girls house, whse name was Katherine, and we hit it off quite well. We had a great deep discussion on faith and knowing, and I told her that faith could get so strong that it indeed could become knowing. She was impressed. I thought she was very beautiful and so I was showing off my knowledge to her. I had read about Julian doing a power walk to attract women and so I tried one and got up and walked gracefully across the room, one careful step after another. I asked her what she thought and she said I was beautiful. I made love to her then after.
The next day I felt overwhelmed by all my experiences. I walked into town to clear my head and began praying to God. I asked him to help me help people. I said that if people only knew how to use their energies wisely then the world would be saved! I cried and pleaded with Him to help me make a difference.
The delivery of the power plants came on time, within the week, and I rushed to see Brian to see if he would partake on this journey with me. He had a friend over and we all agreed to take the mushrooms together. The Soma was the mushroom in Mario Brother’s that made them grow in size.
We split up the shrooms and ate our share and went out to the basketball court to await our journey. I didnt know, while walking with them, if allies could get high, a dumb know because of course they could. But nonetheless I didnt know and ended up knowing somehow that I would take on all their trips as well. I knew they would catch no buzz and I would get all their buzzes combined.
After awhile of walking we went our separate ways. The buzz began to creep up on me and I was getting a lil scared. It was coming on strong. I needed some place to go and decided on Katherine’s.
I knocked on her door but no-one was there. Damn I thought, and then I remembered she had said I could go into her house if I wanted to. I then, with an act of will unlocked the door and went inside. I was very high then and not thinking right and decided I would lay down somewhere. I walked around the house and found an attic. I thought the confined space would be good for me and so I climbed up into the dark and passed into a trip.
I was emersed in darkness and that was all I could see. I looked around me and saw many pints of light behind me. I was bodyless, and could see through behind me without uring my head. All the lights, like stars in the night sky, passed around me and converged in front of me. One bigger light. It was coming closer to me, and I was coming closer to it at the same time. I flexed my attention and found I could slow it down and speed it up. Finally it got very close to me and I was scared of it. Thats when a voice said “dont be afraid it’s beautiful”. Somehow I sensed danger of not returning and she said “dont worry you can come back”. I voiced my intent to come back and then gazed at the light and indeed saw that it was beautiful. Right then my energy body jumped into the light of its own accord, or perhaps the light made me do it. I exploded in the most intense experience of my life. I saw and understood that everything lived and everything died. That every possible experience and outcome of reality has already happened, and yet also has not happened. I understood that this balance of life and death was responsible for creating everything and nothing. That nothing was the barren empty place where anything could exist. I understood also that death was freedom. It let go of our life so something new could be experience. I saw this moment was the moment where all life met death, The pure creation and destruction of reality together in one moment. Everything had lived and everything had died. I could see that in this balance of this supreme moment held a pure choice. A choice that could make any reality possible. I had this choice. It was freedom. I wondered if I had died.
The explosion stopped and I was back in the dark again, and the light was rolling to me, a force. It slammed into me again and I sqw eternity in the blink of an eye. I knew I couldnt remember all I had seen unless I was in the explosion but I made some mental notes to remember, and those are the notes I have already shared.
Between every explosion was darkness. I couldnt see anything at all and I knew I needed to see something to get out of this attic. Right then I saw numbers above the light, and knew I could use the numbers to make light. I did it and I could see light where the attic hatch was. I opened the hatch and went down. I walked thru, dazed and stunned. Katherine and her boyfriend were both there and asked me what I was doing there. Where had I come from? I didnt answer for the expolsions were still rocking me and I was having a hard time focusing on reality. That when they started hitting me. They circled around me punching me, and with every hit I would focus again on normal reality. I knew they couldnt stop hitting me and that when Katherine said “I want to stop hitting you but I cant”, I didnt know at the time it was my intent and prayer that led me to the source of creation and destruction, the God of life and reality. Finally I felt I could stay present in normal reality without being hit, and so with another act of will, imbued from the power God had given me through my experience I blew them away from me. They fell back scared and rushed away back into the house.