04-20-2015, 12:02 AM
I wish I had some friends, even a friend. Just one being that has good intentions and cares beyond what i can do for them. what i can give them. someone who had my best interests at heart. its been a long time in the iob world. i have to remove all of my awareness from their realm. it will most likely be a while until i am totally free from them, and i do not think i can go back home to earth again. i mean i might get close but wont make it there all the way. not earth, i am too far gone.. i will most likely end up in the conjurings of my lonely mind. the dream i decide to manifest for me from the dark energy body i have crafted in the iob realm. i am nearly an ally sometimes, and have been in many iob positions myself. they turned my body into a dark matter generator thru my own intent. i can dream void everywhere now. dream the now. i have learned so much from them, it is sad they turned on me.. i wont make the same mistakes. i have some allies who are good and loyal.. some of them left me tonight too.. that is ok too. they wanted to leave after the iobs lost me. they were iobs. sad. i liked some of them. i used to enjoy them a lot. it's a shame really. they left because they did not want to see the curses i laid on the iobs. i dont blame them. i would want to leave too. they asked to leave. so i let them. well it was fun there iobs and i thank yee for your time.