Sorcery experiences

[Billy]

That was a lot to take in serloco.   As in a usual resonance, I thought yesterday that I would hone 'death' skills when going to indifference.  When you said, "turn your body into a cursing machine," that was the parallel follow-up I had.

  I had BAD flu-like symptoms yesterday.  I have not been sick for a decade, nor had the flu in over three decades.  Every few years I got a head cold/sinus infection; and that was it.  So at first, I went to my black void with intent to heal.  It occurred to me how easy it is to destroy (death) as opposed to build (life).  So I went back intending death of the illness and fever.

   However, I was drawn to connect this approach to becoming good as "cursing machine" and imagining those to be cursed.  I do not like this of course, and focused on the illness.

   I am glad you advised to avoid a steady diet of the IOB realm, as I was adverse to such consumation.  The video hit the mark, as I am sure you created it.  I liked the way you finished upbeat.. "very lovely" for sure.
   Oh, and for the record> as I am honest in all ways> I do like the things you can do for me (and have done for me), and relish the help you will give in 'time.'  However shallow, I do have an interest in your well-being.
   Whatever this is, it is more than all but for wifey and kid.