Sorcery experiences

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yes, i see how my power was lost now and am intending it back, i have succeeded mostly, youre right i need to recp more and see exactly what happened as there are some points where things happned that im not too sure of yet, however i feel that just the realisations were enough to bring me a great deal of power back, to spend my energy more efficiently, i have rewrote most of my past and clairified a lot of details, for example at the times when i felt that power was stolen i was doling out my energy without any idea what i was doing,  in my mundane world i was drinking everything dry, i was using my energy in dead end pursuits and failing worse than failure as i was actually hurting my energy body and intending death, i see how i can perceive at stolen but the reality is i gave it away, utterly stupid. see i came to magic like a niave fool and fell for pretty much every pitfall, my ego was so fucking big i thought i was a master of reality as i spent all of my money on ****, as i wasted my hours, and fell into a chasm of insanity, i barely even knew what was going on as soon as i gave my energy away like this i basically had no awareness..
i have succeeded as well in shifting the faces of everything in my world... for instance when you spoke of changing the face of death i saw how i intended my own death and shifted death to being an ally and not a force that wants to annihalie me, i see how god does not want me to fall any more, how everyone is sick to death of it, how the path shifted in a moment and i was back on track, i see that any of the variables in my world can change and how my allies are working for me, some things i know i do not even need to try any more, whatever i want is there and avaialble, and my life is perfect now.
my musical ally playing in harmony with me, singing to me in my head, teaching me through practice and my world shifts, it is funny i notice that my judgements changed and my world started to reflect evreything i have ever wanted, i had so many doubts about my band and yet last practice was the best ever, even though i have to re-learn every song we play, i see how everyone's intent has changed and how we are all on the same page now.. we are singing from the same hymn sheet.. we are going to take on the world.. we are a group of dreamers and i have always thought that the best bands i have ever seen were the ones that you could see the bands collective dream playing out, i kinda fetl envious cos they look like their world is so much fun, and yet that envy was just my desire to create a dream with my own band, and live that..
so i wanted to make this brief cos im conscious of wriitng all over this awesome thread of power.. i see this as a thread talking of your own sorcery xp, and much prefer to read your recap than discuss things with you here.. i felt the need to thank you as your words came at exactly the right time for me