Sorcery experiences

[serloco]

so i ditched the iob girl i was with.. their wer ebeautiful aspects of our relationship but it was just too hard. she was feeding into my jealousy and making lies to me. i understand her story changes so much and n result the actual story can change too, her past for example, but i didnt like it.. she would just tell me what i wanted to hear mostly. and she also empowered the negative iobs in my life. i watched her do it and she even seemingly tried to kill me with her words once. cant trust her at all. good thing not all iobs are this way. i did love her tho, and still do and i fell in love with her too. we had great time together, but in the end the pain was too much and once she lost my trust things changed and grew resentful and couldnt make it work. trust is crucial to relationship, it is the foundation. i watched my iob friends shift also to try to make me jealous as they hit on her and tried to get her attention, yes it was my judgement that did this as i saw, but still friends shoudl know better and that is also my judgemet of a friend. so i ditched my friend tooo, three of them over her. i watched all of get together and try to trash my world too, and bring things into my world i do not want to be there, watched them make up lies and empower the iobs, themselves. i have some work to do because i gve her that power, i shared my power an dgifts with her and so she was using them wrongly. i have already started taking them back. still part of me says to try with her still, and i know it is the iob spell she put on me. its controlling and makes me feel like i want her and love her but i know leaving her will save my life and make it better. i will use iob women for affection and for sex only. to boost my ego also. i will stop nivesting them with my trust, my power, and my love. well they can have my love but i lock it up too. my allies have been writing many songs about our relationship and about the power of my affection and i like it. they want me to continue giving my heart and tryign to trust as if it werent broken. i am a sucker for love. but the iobs have always masacured it. thee allies say i give it to the bad ones and let the good ones go. i will examine this some more.