Sorcery experiences

[serloco]

i had seen and stated that my dreaming attetion, and i call it my active atention was out of control. i had met a few new allies and some of them were negative ad not yet tamed or tied down in ersonas that i could work with. whe i say active attetion i mean tat whatever i focused on was in motion, changing to my thoughts and ideas. i looked at a tree and brought back an old aly tat wold reshape the trees to my thoughts ito very detailed and flowing pictures reforming the actual tree.. now i had had my dreaming attention getting out of control and it actually took on a life of its own. literally my attention became a separate life for me. now it hd been getting out of control in a number of ways and became even evil a few times. nd so i said to my dreaminf active attention that we needed to get it under control ad so stupidly i said go out f control and be evil then and i will contain you. well the images in the trees began getting out of control and very evil and mosters were even shooting out of the tree. i contained tat right aay but the trees began to die on me. i ould look to see the healthy foliage and i ould see healthy foliage but then i ould think of death and decay and then the trees ould begin to repidly die.. i got it under control rather quickly or so i thought and i began perfectng the nature of the trees and changing leaf shapes into art and creating new trees even. like the whspy tree looking like horses tails of whispy flowing hairlike leaves. it was so great... but my active attetion was still focusing on evil and so it began making diseases on the trees and bringing back old diseases i had cured on trees. it wast long until every tree i focused on would wither and die an then be rebrought back innto health again ad death again and then health and so on and on it went until every tree in my world was brown and dead and finally i brought back all the trees and time traveled into the future to make it fall so i could control the out of control colour change i had created. i made yellowing in the trees and i couldnt contail the leaves from turning yellow from a disease and then into fall colouring and then green again and then yellow etc. so time jumping into fall saved the day and i finally got control of the colour change and intended stability of my attetion on the trees. so now all i see aare beautiful and amazing trees. they are now more beautiful then i ever have seen. one of the disease i made was called black death and i could not get rid of all the perceptions of it and so on some trees are black freckles. the trees told me they ept them because it made them immortal since they died so many time and lived though total death many times ad they told me they wanted to keep the pretty black freckles and so they did. the newly foud brauty of trees is something i adore, i remember thinking i will keep the enhanced beauty of the trees ad stavle inactive attention for awhile and forget the active death i was so hooked onto. then sure enough i wandered town and saw such beauty in the trees and it was all stable. so great man i can not even say how great it feels to have beauty and stability after seeing so much motion and death and decay. the perception was on all the people too and when i looked at them disease, decay, black death would cast onto their skin and sores and blemished and frckles and so many things would manifest onto them. the scary part was that they knew it was happening to them too and so it as hard to call it a hallcination which i finally managed to do. lucky for me i learned to make hallucinations real and real things hallucinations. it was a draw back for awhile because i made unreal things real when i was out of control but i managed to use it to my advantage and tok off all the bad things and heal the people and the trees, and not to mention i also learned how to better enhance beauty in people too. i made some people very beautiful when once they were average or even ugly. all that is needed is the voice of intent to say people are beautiful now or they are ugly now. it takes even now for me only a couple of seconds and they begin to change, or they change all at once sometimes. sometimes in my world all i need to think is that girl is a little chubby or she could be better if she were like this or that and they up and change themselves. sca how powerful my people are and can be. reminds me of the old allies who got trapped. cutting away their power i can do and enslave them into powerless beings but it can be scary since my worlds is my ally ad helps me when i need it to. i have seen my powerful allies cut dow to size and in the process left me high and ry when i needed them. my greates allies want me powerful and free lie themselves.