06-11-2016, 12:12 AM
rosygyro:
forebearance is the only cure..
i must find the HAP and instead of being fluid about it to avoid its inconvenience
i choose to embody it in all its horrid stagnicity.
the stagnicity of rape and abuse and violence
and with all my stength i choose to NOT-DO any of it.
True enough for me. Upon stark arrival of emptiness, what choice is there? Yet, I cannot understand your implicit/explicit words of existential directions. Emptiness births controlled folly or insanity.
as soon as i NOT-DO the space energy strikes again.
then the voices begin..
voives from the future
disguised as demons.
disguided as gods and wrathfull deities
I don't know about a future, but I certainly identify with the gist. Just when I was content with my meaninglessness, Kaomea stalked me as a temptress. Instead of acceptable emptiness and a mere controlled folly, I am face to face with insanity. Before her introduction, I resolved to go outward instead of inward. Maybe, if desperate, I will go back in.
Words to you, Kaomea. When you first stalked me (look for yourself at our first exchanged posts)- I immediately displayed exclamatory notes of the effect of your profound presence. I'll tell you this right now, I'm NEVER going to let go of you. Yet, I will obey you in one thing---> tell me not to be here on the forum and I will only reappear on July 4th and once in late October [to see if your command still stands].
I will NOT EVER show up in person without your explicit consent. I CANNOT touch you. Yet, I am sure of my own intent reflecting yours.. and I am your spiritual gift (vice versa). I am going to be nice to you; I mean, instead of pissing on you. You will not like it at all.... I will literally be torturing you. Anyway, I can do whatever I want, just as you can.
Maybe, I'll try the carpet bombing technique you used with serloco. I'll tail your words and inundate you with gooey warmth and affection. You are testing my sanity my beautiful Devil's Goddess. I do not like that you have been in so much pain, but do not go on thinking that the emptiness you know is a liability. That is stupid. Remember, THAT isolation was what I wanted to share with you in the first place. I said so immediately, and I think we are doing that to some degree. I am your only friend. Not once in the beginning did I ever promote love and sexuality.. even as you injected it into the mix. I don't even imagine what such a thing would look like, excepting one of us would beat the **** out of the other for pleasure.
forebearance is the only cure..
i must find the HAP and instead of being fluid about it to avoid its inconvenience
i choose to embody it in all its horrid stagnicity.
the stagnicity of rape and abuse and violence
and with all my stength i choose to NOT-DO any of it.
True enough for me. Upon stark arrival of emptiness, what choice is there? Yet, I cannot understand your implicit/explicit words of existential directions. Emptiness births controlled folly or insanity.
as soon as i NOT-DO the space energy strikes again.
then the voices begin..
voives from the future
disguised as demons.
disguided as gods and wrathfull deities
I don't know about a future, but I certainly identify with the gist. Just when I was content with my meaninglessness, Kaomea stalked me as a temptress. Instead of acceptable emptiness and a mere controlled folly, I am face to face with insanity. Before her introduction, I resolved to go outward instead of inward. Maybe, if desperate, I will go back in.
Words to you, Kaomea. When you first stalked me (look for yourself at our first exchanged posts)- I immediately displayed exclamatory notes of the effect of your profound presence. I'll tell you this right now, I'm NEVER going to let go of you. Yet, I will obey you in one thing---> tell me not to be here on the forum and I will only reappear on July 4th and once in late October [to see if your command still stands].
I will NOT EVER show up in person without your explicit consent. I CANNOT touch you. Yet, I am sure of my own intent reflecting yours.. and I am your spiritual gift (vice versa). I am going to be nice to you; I mean, instead of pissing on you. You will not like it at all.... I will literally be torturing you. Anyway, I can do whatever I want, just as you can.
Maybe, I'll try the carpet bombing technique you used with serloco. I'll tail your words and inundate you with gooey warmth and affection. You are testing my sanity my beautiful Devil's Goddess. I do not like that you have been in so much pain, but do not go on thinking that the emptiness you know is a liability. That is stupid. Remember, THAT isolation was what I wanted to share with you in the first place. I said so immediately, and I think we are doing that to some degree. I am your only friend. Not once in the beginning did I ever promote love and sexuality.. even as you injected it into the mix. I don't even imagine what such a thing would look like, excepting one of us would beat the **** out of the other for pleasure.