08-13-2018, 12:01 AM
Yes, that resonates totally. There's a link within, no matter the circumstances....racist or pious priest, natural born nagual or Joe Blow who grew up watching the Dukes of Hazard, spanking his wank to Momma's JC Penny magazine. That acorn of freedom is in there somewhere and can be focused upon and can gain gravity once cohered around for however long it takes to gather critical mass.
Movement of the AP....deep within. To the epicenter. The makes sense in terms of gathering oneself in a way around a magnetic center....all disparate parts being pulled into/toward that center. Ah, jeez! Here's that feeling again....the compulsion to pace around to get away from it....but I just have to sit in it. I remember trying to press inward.....just to be done with it (my own Men Staring at Goats moment, I guess). Impression was I would either burn with the fire from within or give myself a heart attack trying. Of course, I didn't have the stamina for either. This witch, off to the side was laughing at me, dancing around in her crow's feather cloak with bone rattle staff singing, "The only way out is through! The only way out is through! The only way out is through!"
This morning, in gazing meditation, I saw a cross section of the earth. Crust....mantle.....liquid center within which the crystal ball of pressurized iron spins. All those concentric circles aligned and spinning freely around one another, creating this magnetic field that, in my view, looked like a perfectly spherical nimbus of rainbow colors cloaking the earth.
Movement of the AP....deep within. To the epicenter. The makes sense in terms of gathering oneself in a way around a magnetic center....all disparate parts being pulled into/toward that center. Ah, jeez! Here's that feeling again....the compulsion to pace around to get away from it....but I just have to sit in it. I remember trying to press inward.....just to be done with it (my own Men Staring at Goats moment, I guess). Impression was I would either burn with the fire from within or give myself a heart attack trying. Of course, I didn't have the stamina for either. This witch, off to the side was laughing at me, dancing around in her crow's feather cloak with bone rattle staff singing, "The only way out is through! The only way out is through! The only way out is through!"
This morning, in gazing meditation, I saw a cross section of the earth. Crust....mantle.....liquid center within which the crystal ball of pressurized iron spins. All those concentric circles aligned and spinning freely around one another, creating this magnetic field that, in my view, looked like a perfectly spherical nimbus of rainbow colors cloaking the earth.