08-17-2018, 12:01 AM
If you don't mind me asking....what shifted for you during this process of diving into this hellhole? In terms of "that was then and this is now" kind of thing. Implication seems to suggest that the whole endeavor has become more bearable for you, somehow?
A story came to mind, reflecting on your endeavor (I got a brief taste of what you've endured, I think, upon reading and looking into it with what capacity I have as a nascent seer (a clear blade pushing past/through a tightly packed crowd of screaming mouths/faces...and then the feeling with it.....pretty shocking/horrific). Don Juan mentioned the pressure upon watching his son die, if I remember correctly...down in a pit crushed by construction equipment....bleeding out (is this right? I swear I read this somewhere in CC's books but I can't find the story now). He witnessed the whole scene, watching impassively, but did so by shifting his awareness between seeing the 1st attention presentation and seeing the 3rd attention presentation of what was happening....as "energy that flows in the universe". I'm not trying to be flip.....or offer something which may represent a cop-out. Its just that, from what I understand, seeing energy directly....as an abstraction....is really the "truest" representation of what is actually going on. And also has the benefit of removing the psychic "horror" of what is going on in these extreme circumstances. From that perspective, it may be kind of the "Zen" version of resolving "suffering" from a Buddhist point of view. A way of penetrating through perceived suffering to see the "liberated" view which deals strictly with the energy of suffering instead of the nightmare of suffering.
IDK....again, most of this is speculative from my view. I'm not sure if being able to shift views like this would be beneficial.....or would actually diminish/dilute what you are trying to do. It just seems like its too much suffering for any one person to endure in order to help humanity....to help usher in the shift you seem to be speaking about.
A story came to mind, reflecting on your endeavor (I got a brief taste of what you've endured, I think, upon reading and looking into it with what capacity I have as a nascent seer (a clear blade pushing past/through a tightly packed crowd of screaming mouths/faces...and then the feeling with it.....pretty shocking/horrific). Don Juan mentioned the pressure upon watching his son die, if I remember correctly...down in a pit crushed by construction equipment....bleeding out (is this right? I swear I read this somewhere in CC's books but I can't find the story now). He witnessed the whole scene, watching impassively, but did so by shifting his awareness between seeing the 1st attention presentation and seeing the 3rd attention presentation of what was happening....as "energy that flows in the universe". I'm not trying to be flip.....or offer something which may represent a cop-out. Its just that, from what I understand, seeing energy directly....as an abstraction....is really the "truest" representation of what is actually going on. And also has the benefit of removing the psychic "horror" of what is going on in these extreme circumstances. From that perspective, it may be kind of the "Zen" version of resolving "suffering" from a Buddhist point of view. A way of penetrating through perceived suffering to see the "liberated" view which deals strictly with the energy of suffering instead of the nightmare of suffering.
IDK....again, most of this is speculative from my view. I'm not sure if being able to shift views like this would be beneficial.....or would actually diminish/dilute what you are trying to do. It just seems like its too much suffering for any one person to endure in order to help humanity....to help usher in the shift you seem to be speaking about.