11-01-2016, 12:01 AM
PERHAPS I AM QUESTIONING your work in MEST of the sorcerers world to reign in your earlier aggressive actions.
The Folly of Youth is a well understood concept.
I myself was once indulging in amphetamine induced anal sex with a girlfriend of mine.
after a few minutes of it she said " stop" its hurting.
I often went on for hours and as you can imagine with anal sex thats not always a pleasant thing.
anyway to cut a long story short, my girlfried was used to me lasting a long time and i thought "Hmmmm" i could ejaculate in the next 30 seconds.
and so even though she said stop i continued to @*$$ her ass until i ejaculated in it.
we had by that point had sex at least a 1000 times..
and we did it hundreds more in the months that followed.
however THAT moment of time where she said stop and i thought fuckit was an energetic boundary between myself and her totality.
it bought me right up to the edge of the sexual consent of the NAGUAL WOMAN.
to this day , the sexual act in a little orange tent in 1995 still haunts me..
i still feel tethered to her #$@%..
i even phoned her up drunk in 2007 to ask her if i had ever raped her when we were together. (very guilty conscience)
(the conversation is probably in a digital telecom archive somewhere beneath the pentagon)
to which she responded "no Harley, of course not".
but the energetic to try to change my SEXUAL TOTALITY is still tied to that point.
For me at least.
It does not do to just change my behaviour in the present, i must also tackle my entire being within totality in order to
erase the parts of personal history which border on energetic attatchment or upon seperatism.
The Folly of Youth is a well understood concept.
I myself was once indulging in amphetamine induced anal sex with a girlfriend of mine.
after a few minutes of it she said " stop" its hurting.
I often went on for hours and as you can imagine with anal sex thats not always a pleasant thing.
anyway to cut a long story short, my girlfried was used to me lasting a long time and i thought "Hmmmm" i could ejaculate in the next 30 seconds.
and so even though she said stop i continued to @*$$ her ass until i ejaculated in it.
we had by that point had sex at least a 1000 times..
and we did it hundreds more in the months that followed.
however THAT moment of time where she said stop and i thought fuckit was an energetic boundary between myself and her totality.
it bought me right up to the edge of the sexual consent of the NAGUAL WOMAN.
to this day , the sexual act in a little orange tent in 1995 still haunts me..
i still feel tethered to her #$@%..
i even phoned her up drunk in 2007 to ask her if i had ever raped her when we were together. (very guilty conscience)
(the conversation is probably in a digital telecom archive somewhere beneath the pentagon)
to which she responded "no Harley, of course not".
but the energetic to try to change my SEXUAL TOTALITY is still tied to that point.
For me at least.
It does not do to just change my behaviour in the present, i must also tackle my entire being within totality in order to
erase the parts of personal history which border on energetic attatchment or upon seperatism.