01-11-2017, 12:00 AM
a not doing.(example x)
1) I try to project my intent clearly and with impeccability to the potentially awakened infinite future,
2) i identify that if my intent was a spear i am in the act of throwing forward that part of my power is not fully complete.
3) i recapitulate in order to isolate that part of my energetic history/social conditioning which is a block to my energy in the present.
4) the memory i find is one of sliding down an old car bonnet on a scrap heap.. that i know led within 1.5 seconds of the memory
to my knee being cut open apon some rusty metal snag.
5)i try to bring that same inevitability to the fore in the present, to see where i am sliding inexhorably toward some unknown
which will inevitably contain death of some kind.
6) my not doing is to open my eyes to inevitability, whilst using my recapitualtion to isolate the social conditioning of an earlier wound.
to plot with my totality a motion of inevitability which i am surely sliding on as i was then.
7) the CHOICE at this point is wether to avoid the same mistake as second time "whilst" recapitulating the painfull extreme of the memory.
or to shift the focus and consider the slide as metaphorical of the aspects of my life i do not control, the snag metaphorical of the fringes of the corporeal
but still concurrently clear the energy block.recapitulation.
either way- whatever choice i make i will whilst doing it also re-find the truth of its recapitulation even if i am NOT-to do it again.
9) OR i could go out and do something daft and possible injure myself ina similar fahsion as an act of nostalgia and not doing.
i guess the point is that my action today clears the energetic blockage of resistence to pain (social conditioning) and that is my intent.
the stars were in position on that day (x)
the stars are in position today (y)
what i choose to do is a wrestle with the forces of mest and what i kn ow of myself.
i throw the spear again as i .. move.
1) I try to project my intent clearly and with impeccability to the potentially awakened infinite future,
2) i identify that if my intent was a spear i am in the act of throwing forward that part of my power is not fully complete.
3) i recapitulate in order to isolate that part of my energetic history/social conditioning which is a block to my energy in the present.
4) the memory i find is one of sliding down an old car bonnet on a scrap heap.. that i know led within 1.5 seconds of the memory
to my knee being cut open apon some rusty metal snag.
5)i try to bring that same inevitability to the fore in the present, to see where i am sliding inexhorably toward some unknown
which will inevitably contain death of some kind.
6) my not doing is to open my eyes to inevitability, whilst using my recapitualtion to isolate the social conditioning of an earlier wound.
to plot with my totality a motion of inevitability which i am surely sliding on as i was then.
7) the CHOICE at this point is wether to avoid the same mistake as second time "whilst" recapitulating the painfull extreme of the memory.
or to shift the focus and consider the slide as metaphorical of the aspects of my life i do not control, the snag metaphorical of the fringes of the corporeal
but still concurrently clear the energy block.recapitulation.
either way- whatever choice i make i will whilst doing it also re-find the truth of its recapitulation even if i am NOT-to do it again.
9) OR i could go out and do something daft and possible injure myself ina similar fahsion as an act of nostalgia and not doing.
i guess the point is that my action today clears the energetic blockage of resistence to pain (social conditioning) and that is my intent.
the stars were in position on that day (x)
the stars are in position today (y)
what i choose to do is a wrestle with the forces of mest and what i kn ow of myself.
i throw the spear again as i .. move.