I am bowing out

[serloco]

Yes listening is a great skill. I think we have our identity that we measure reality with and this measurement, this ego, or identity often can interfere with seeing what is real. Being pure awareness is ideal and the place where I seek to be. This way no wrong idea can paint my perception and i will not be living in a hollow, empty lie. I am seeing yesterdays every where I look. Old powers and old awarenesses trying to be real again. Old, long dead judgement trying to come back to life. I dont believe them anymore but they still try. I blame sorcery because it taught me that the world was full of our judgements and I believed it. It tricked me into judging it. You dont have to judge the world while don Juan taught me you did. I hung on his every word and fell into his idea and for me it was hell. I judged the world as a cold place. For years i was lost in my ideas and judgements every where I turned. I managed to get the best out of it by controlling the judgements and forming them in positive ways. But it was always controlling everything. Now I am so sick of movers, and commands, so sick of wrong ideas manifesting. I suspend and all active thoughts and judgements and allow my world to be the life, free as they are. I dont interfere in any way and meanwhile the old dead worlds I used to believe in and make real are following me and trying to get me to judge them, and tell them what to do and what to be. Old awarenesses that are hollow echos of what they used to be. I am full of mind controlling freaks, iobs, and old allies, trying to control my thoughts, and my awareness, my knowledge, and my commands. Its so sickening. I am trying and winning but the old world doesnt want to let me go. I see that I am winning. I have sacrificed so much power to do what is right for myself and for the world. I will keep my head up ad keep focused on the right way to live and be. I will form the most beautifull knowledge of the world and follow it with my heart. That is my goal and so it shall be.