03-02-2016, 12:00 AM
Yes, i have been learning to demand better. My trees bend over backward for me. They are about ready to squash anyone who offends them. i like that. i feel ready to tell anyone and anything what to do.. i am worried tho. is it reality inorganic or organic? i am not so sure. i learned to control both, but they take me away.. i often enter into inclusive inorganic realities, and have them cater to, but what have i left behind? is reality enough to keep me alive and sustained? i can tell anything what to be, and it does it for me. i can tell my people how to be and they are so for me. but i get sick of it. i have the heart of a warrior, of freedom. i want people to be free and powerful. i dont want everything waiting form my command. i want freedom. I need a challenge. I am sic of being number one, i want to be number two, and for me to bow and be humble for a new god, a new creator with a good heart. I am used to being number one. I want to find someone to surpass me. someone i can learn from. Yes, maybe i will demand again. demand something new and exciting. i feel bored.