02-14-2016, 12:00 AM
I know I am usually one for allies, but I am ALWAYS one for freedom. My life has been built around the pursuit of freedom.. I also dislike how allies can be volitionless and indifferent. I prefer warmth and caring and my body knows that even tho you set your ally to be any way you want at the core it is pointless. It doesnt matter. You need to be strong in order to hold your allies. If you are not strong then I could come up to you and command your ally to do whatever I want. Take it and rearrange it and make it do my bidding. I dont like that. I always make a note to call my allies strong and loyal. You must set loyalty in your ally, and tell your ally not to move for anything else. I have been in world where people, including allies, all fought over each other's allies. A strong ally is a treat to have. There people were after allies and i lost some of them, its still going on right now. People want my allies, my music, my world power, my positions of awareness.. I fricken hate it... weak people cant seem to get their own allies, and make it for themselves.. My allies despise thieves, and need. My allies dont like to need. You can give them enough energy to sustain themselves and they can keep their energy too. But then you gete dip **** morons trying to interfere and trying to move your allies against your will. Trying to step in and tell you what reality is and what allies are. GO AND GET YOUR OWN YOU FUCKERS. Yes indeed I can hold my allies. CAN YOU? Are they wild? Do they listen? Tell you a secret k? My allies in your hands are not my allies. They have not my power nor the powr i have give my allies. and do you know what they are for you? whatever the *** I say they are. I remember once they stole one of my allies and made her move for me.. I foresaw this and planned ahead. I even told them what would happen.. Ends up they thought they could use y perfect ally and get stuff from her that i do, and so they tried but it was trick and a trap and she was told to move in a certain way to trick and to hurt the ones abusing me. It was great.. a delight.. But noadays I dont even care. I hve my own world I live in .. I have my own people I can command. I can heal people and myself, grow younger, and od magic of all sorts on my own. Or to make it easier I can call one of my allies, and make it easir to do my stuff ad learn. But lately I dont have the desire. I am content growing trees and being one with my nature. I am content being normal and without the wars, and fighting for allies and girls and control. You can control me anymore, you cant tell me things anymore. You just cant. I see you try but you fail. I erase what i dont want and keep what i want. simple as that. I prefer to work with allies who have volition of their own. I prefer lately to be in the unknown.. I am content tho being normal and doing not much at all.. I like to nap, and sleep.. ANd dream. I am usually one for stalking all day and all night control over the world and everything in it.. But i think that ship s sailing .. I dont need to be anything or do anything to feel good and powerful. I am powerful. SO powerful that anything i say will come to pass. I am a prophet, an angel, a king demon, an artist, a teacher, a genius, and so much more and i dont even care. I like to go back to what i used to be before the cold sorcery began. and I want to be normal now. I have allies who mocked me and enticed me to stand up in power again, and i did, but it was a mistake. I dont want to be the old derek, the power hungry monster. I want to be the simple derek who is in the game for love. I started a normal business and one day will write some books. But you know what? It is so nice to just be a normal human and be there looking at a normal world. I fuel that now. I make that. I am so o used to the 2nd attention where things flow and are different configurations of reality. I liked it for a long tie but the battles for control and power ruined it for me. Go ahead, take it all. I dont care.. Ill set you up a trip to the other worlds.. go have a ball, but one thing is for sure you cant have what is mine, my soul. I will keep it, and cherish it and you cant make me judge people, you cant make me control people, you cant make me move people. and I dont do that anymore. I like reality to be normal and loving., and letting and allowing people to be what they want to be. I am changed now, and I think I will take a while to be without allies. I talk to the eveyday, they sing for me and stuff. But even my music is ok being normal written songs that aren't about me. I will be normal soon in all ways.. I am not sure if i will keep y allies of music either. I love them, so much, and it has been fun, but no i can set them to make music something for everyone, and that sounds nice. I am been selfish for a long time. Greedy, and lusting. I gave it all up last month for a normal life. And I asked for a normal girl and one came into my world, to ffill that gourd for me. ANd i am happy. I will love and learn of love now for while, and not use my allies. It is time for a change. Freedom? YEs please, I am free to do normal things. I am going to make a killing selling my trees, and i have a very green thumb. I think I will let go of the non volitional people, and hang on to the avergae normal world. I wil do well there.. wish me luck? ANy bets on how long i will stay here? WHat can I say , part of my loves allies yes but part of me hates it too. I have great love for them all, and I will miss them, but some of them I will be very happy without. I need a break. I had become an odd and old sorcerer in the 2nd attention, and I dont want my old life anyore. I did my tasks and greatly so, I went to hell and set the people free. I did many things for many people and I am blessed now. I will take my goodness and my blessing and grow soe trees in the average world. No allies for me.