04-27-2015, 12:00 AM
serloco wrote:... i have loads of awareness and energy and i can generate it too on the spot.. always to the solution billy, remember that, free flowing moments and always go to the solution.. i remember a genius once spoke of it...he said most people see the problem onlya nd watch it and stare at it, but if you keep looking at the problem you will miss the path to the solutions that are also there in infinity.. infinity looks to the soluton he said. i will never forget it, one of the best pieces of knowledge from the mundane human world i had ever heard...
I do like telling you of my awareness (whether during or in hindsight) that you entered my position of awareness many times. I SAW recently you left me to my own devices. Great timing, great learning. That you SEE my autonomy as worthwhile is a nice compliment to me. Christ, this is FUCKING WEIRD. I laugh > NO WAY this happens to someone as independent in thought, spirit, and convention as myself. (NO ONE could EVER touch me like you do!)
I am so relaxed with your power as my given. As I do more things on my own, it will be less obvious to me when you enter. I feel as though you are sharing your presence again just these last few days. Even so (or either way), I have taken your paraphrase above to heart; I know its pulse now.
Hilarity >All in all, I am open > am i not? All in all, I introduce no contingencies > do I Derek?
(GRINNING) You cannot have some sort of juxtaposition. You CAN'T. That would be baggage.
I have no allowance for 'separate' things.
REALLY THOUGH > What can I say? I am most grateful to be billy knowing Derek. Derek knowing billy................. ...!!
Am I as deep as I think I am? LAUGH- because- I am dirty.
I do like telling you of my awareness (whether during or in hindsight) that you entered my position of awareness many times. I SAW recently you left me to my own devices. Great timing, great learning. That you SEE my autonomy as worthwhile is a nice compliment to me. Christ, this is FUCKING WEIRD. I laugh > NO WAY this happens to someone as independent in thought, spirit, and convention as myself. (NO ONE could EVER touch me like you do!)
I am so relaxed with your power as my given. As I do more things on my own, it will be less obvious to me when you enter. I feel as though you are sharing your presence again just these last few days. Even so (or either way), I have taken your paraphrase above to heart; I know its pulse now.
Hilarity >All in all, I am open > am i not? All in all, I introduce no contingencies > do I Derek?
(GRINNING) You cannot have some sort of juxtaposition. You CAN'T. That would be baggage.
I have no allowance for 'separate' things.
REALLY THOUGH > What can I say? I am most grateful to be billy knowing Derek. Derek knowing billy................. ...!!
Am I as deep as I think I am? LAUGH- because- I am dirty.