04-30-2015, 12:00 AM
i will post here some extract from email last night.. all my words just to provide context
the thing is that i honestly realised everything in that post kill em it
was like i read it and it had already happened to me even though i
didnt know that i was under the influenc e of a flyer.. i saw how it
tried to hide this from you and you saw it anyway and have helped me
destryo it.. without even mentioning it..--i also see the mask of the flyer..in plain view how it is like a sucker
on the face, just probably a memory of some description in castaneda,
but thats how i see it and i will definitely be taking your approach in
attempting to destroy the flyer where i see it with my intent, i never
want anyone to feel like i did and it is just common sense, my ally
showed me this and also not to be dragged into it again and also that it
is what cast my impression that everyone hated me.. you see it was
indifference that i saw and the flyer or whatever took that and
whisphered that it was hate.. my ally showed me this
--
so last night i destroyed the flyer using the method the original post describes, with the help of my ally.. i merged with her at some points and we journeyed together.. i would like to thank you humbly for everything you've written on this forum, i praise your patience for showing me how to activate aspects of my awareness i never even imagined.. all with supreme skill.. i know that there do not exist words to express my gratitude.
i saw how my reading of castaneda made it easier for the flyer to control me.. i thought in the past that perhaps knowledge of the flyer would be beneficial, in my case, it made things more difficult - or i made everything more difficult for myself, i should say. one of the reasons for this is that without a nagual to show me things, i feel that i was still entertaining a lot of what castaneda was saying intellectually, not really going there - not really believing things, and not doing enough practice.. this, in the past, has been a trait of my character - to do the least amount of work possible, i am very lazy, so it is only natural that this kind of thing happened to me. i neglected a great deal of the teachings and this is something that i have now corrected.
i moved to a new pad today it is calm, pleasant and comfortable, and have already received a gift of power, weights and bench.. think its time to get ripped
the thing is that i honestly realised everything in that post kill em it
was like i read it and it had already happened to me even though i
didnt know that i was under the influenc e of a flyer.. i saw how it
tried to hide this from you and you saw it anyway and have helped me
destryo it.. without even mentioning it..--i also see the mask of the flyer..in plain view how it is like a sucker
on the face, just probably a memory of some description in castaneda,
but thats how i see it and i will definitely be taking your approach in
attempting to destroy the flyer where i see it with my intent, i never
want anyone to feel like i did and it is just common sense, my ally
showed me this and also not to be dragged into it again and also that it
is what cast my impression that everyone hated me.. you see it was
indifference that i saw and the flyer or whatever took that and
whisphered that it was hate.. my ally showed me this
--
so last night i destroyed the flyer using the method the original post describes, with the help of my ally.. i merged with her at some points and we journeyed together.. i would like to thank you humbly for everything you've written on this forum, i praise your patience for showing me how to activate aspects of my awareness i never even imagined.. all with supreme skill.. i know that there do not exist words to express my gratitude.
i saw how my reading of castaneda made it easier for the flyer to control me.. i thought in the past that perhaps knowledge of the flyer would be beneficial, in my case, it made things more difficult - or i made everything more difficult for myself, i should say. one of the reasons for this is that without a nagual to show me things, i feel that i was still entertaining a lot of what castaneda was saying intellectually, not really going there - not really believing things, and not doing enough practice.. this, in the past, has been a trait of my character - to do the least amount of work possible, i am very lazy, so it is only natural that this kind of thing happened to me. i neglected a great deal of the teachings and this is something that i have now corrected.
i moved to a new pad today it is calm, pleasant and comfortable, and have already received a gift of power, weights and bench.. think its time to get ripped